𝘍𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘛𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦

8- His Domination

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~𝐄𝐩𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡~

I had apprehension
That you decided not to mention
Not opening up fully to the expectation
I have a fear that it may end up in relation

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𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖: 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐃𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

When we can't unlearn fears, we become the great teachers of fear then the world and everyone in it is fifty feet behind of glass. We can see them but none of them can take it away from us. Loving bonds become inaccessible and the time we take to find out whether the threat is real or not, this fear takes over our skin and then there is no turning back. This fear gives birth to a new fear and then another and then another until it becomes so dangerous that not only it breaks the glass but damages the bonds of love and thus reactions in place of responses, a lack of self-control and simple solutions over ones that consider the feelings of others.

So when my heart is shivering with fear, I will recall this fear and use it as a weapon to poke holes in the fear bucket then slowly...slowly, let it all drain.

I stepped out of the car while my breathing was still trembling. I looked back Kai was standing by the pump, filling gas into the car. "I want to use the restroom," I said, Kai, shook his head to me and continued filling up the gas. 

I walked into the restroom and locked the door quickly. I ran to the sink and threw splashes of water over my face after opening the tap while the tears roll down my face. I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked into my eyes and there I was standing scared, weak, lost and vulnerable, like any other girl. 

I am not like any other girl. "You are not scared, you are not weak," I mumbled in a cracking voice looking into my eyes in the mirror, holding back the tears. "You are stronger than this."

I sighed and took out a tissue from the tissue box resting by the sink, I wiped my face. I looked back in the mirror and said, "I can do this." 

By saying that I walked out of the restroom and Kai was standing by the car on the other side. As I reached a little closer he turned to me by the sound of my steps. "Let's go?" he asked opening the door of his side.

"No, Umm...I am hungry" I said, his gaze went from me to the store near the pump. "Okay, I will bring something. You wait in the car, hmm?" he said and walked away, I smiled while opening the door. As Kai walked into the store, I closed the door back.

I looked all around and found two empty roads. There were some small hotels and restaurants at a distance and very few cars around the corner. I saw a police car and two cops outside a small cabin some meters away. There's my chance.

I ran to the corner of the pump and then jumped on the road. I ran as fast as I could. My stomach and back were aching but nothing mattered more than escaping from that monster. 

Adrenaline coursed through my veins. My calves were burning and I felt my whole body working as I push myself harder and went faster as I could. I wasn't even looking back because there is no use in looking back. My curious self wasn't satisfied and I turned my head around to see while slowing down a little. 

There was no one, no one was following me. Looking hardly I saw that I covered most of the area and there was some more left to get to that cabin. My legs were tired and my body was running warm. Gut-wrenching, heart-pumping and I continued, after several thrusts forward I reached the cabin.