Taste of Peaches

14

"No really if I were to change this parts location here maybe-" I let out a loud groan while shooting daggers at Delilah who just sat on the rug staring at me with her tonge out. "Oh don't look at me like that. I'm serious, how in the hell is this supposed to work... ?"

You really know youve hit rock bottom when your talking to a dog about a college assignment.

"You know what. Fuck this shit lady... lets go on a walk baby." I said while setting my laptop aside and walking over to the door where I slipped some shoes on and picked up a leash that was hung on the wall.

Delilah quickly got up and followed me over while wagging her tail happily at me.

"Ok hunny off we go." I said all while hooking the latch onto her collar and opening the door. She was still a puppy so the second we got outside she made a break for it... which really only ended in her sad realization that she was stuck to me.

Before we started walking I placed in my ear buds and turned on some music.

The hot sun beat down on us as we made our way down the sidewalk and Delilah was surprisingly behaved the whole time allowing me to zone out a bit.

It all still felt really surreal.

I just felt unattached from my life and it made me want to curl up in a ball and cry.

Sure I had people around me. My family. But it just didnt feel right and I wasnt sure exactly why, before Alex I had never really felt this emptiness but now... it just felt like an everyday acurence to feel this way.

Feel like I had no control over my life.

Sure there was the small pockets where I felt happy. Like when I was with my siblings or... when I was with Alessandro.

Alessandro?

It wasnt that I wasnt happy... but maybe it was? I thought moving across the country would fill the empty whole inside me but all it ended up doing was make me feel more alone.

I had no suport system here.

Maybe moving here was all a big mistake and I should have stayed in the states? Or maybe-

No, moving here wasnt a mistake. I felt this emptiness there too. At least here I'm experiencing a new adventure.

Not living through other peoples.

It was always the silence that came with being alone that made me the most uncertain. But it did always tend to reveal my true desires...

It's how I decided to move here.

-

I don't really think walking cleared my head about anything that had to do with my work so I somehow came to the conclusion that calling Alessandro would be a good idea. We hadnt talked for a couple of days and I didnt want to just be a girl he called up when he was horny.

I mean the sex was good but I would never let myself volintarily be used like that after what Alex did to me.

Especially not by a guy I knew would and could hurt me.

So here I was with the phone up to my ear while I called his phone number. "Hello?" he answered and I cleared my throat before answering.

"Hey Alessandro." I said and waited for him to respond. The line was dead for a bit and the only thing I could hear was comotion in the backround before I heared him speak up.

"Oh hey Mia. Whats up?" he asked in a much more friendly tone and I rolled my eyes at his change in mood.

"Nothing really except for the fact that I'm bored and found the need to call my casual hook up." I stated and heard his breath catch through the phone before he regained his composure and spoke in a low husky voice.