I was upset when I got the idea but I waited too long and now I feel better.
But I'll try anyways
(usually poems rhyme but a lot of mine don't. When they don't rhyme I call them chopped stories. Chopped stories are usually longer than regular poems.)
Loved
My life has been spent
Doubting my worth
Wondering if my presence
Inconvenienced others
My life has been spent
Feeling unloved
Feeling alone
Being pushed away
By everyone
All the time
Trapped in my room
Trapped in my head
Dad getting high
Mom miles
And miles away
The only people in my life
Were the lawyers
And the counselors
And the doctors
They were the ones
Who made sure I was okay
Because nobody else could
They weren't allowed to
My mother told me
My father used me to hurt her
My father told me
My mother use me to hurt him
My parents told me
I was being used
Over and over and over
My entire life
I never felt like a human
I never felt loved like a human
And that's how it was
For a very long time
So naturally
Every other person
Who tried to be close to me
And tried to love me
Was pushed away
Until I met her
One of two
With whom I never fought
Always agreeable
Love without consequences
We are friends to this day
The other one I met
Four years later
Two of two
With whom I have had
Disagreements
With
Opened my eyes
Made me see
There can be love and pain
Yin and yang
Together they thrive
Because facing conflicts
Is the only way you can really
Understand someone
I feel loved when I am around them
But my heart feels very fragile
And if they were to break it
It would need
Micromanagement
I'm sure
