Beyond Blue Eyes

02: Jade

I don't get it. Just this morning, I could've sworn I was thinking about ways to make Vega's life miserable, and now I suddenly want her to be as happy as possible. She must've been right about me hitting my head pretty hard, because I feel like a completely different person. "Maybe I hit my head harder than I thought," I say. "Maybe. You seem like a totally different woman than you were before," Vega says. "I feel like a totally different woman, Vega. It's so strange. Like, just this morning, I could've sworn I was thinking of ways to make your life miserable, but now I suddenly want you to be as happy as possible," I reply simply. "Okay, now you just sound crazy," Vega replies. "I know, but it's true. I've always been jealous of what you have. I mean, you have a loving family and loads of friends and amazing talents. I come from a broken family, and most of the time I just make my friends mad," I say. "So that's why you tried to make my life miserable," she says thoughtfully. "Yeah, but I don't want to be that woman anymore. I want to reinvent myself, become a better person, someone that everyone wants to hang out with, instead of being the woman everyone's scared of," I say, looking at my feet. "Jade, I can help you, if you want me to," she says with a kind smile. "You would really do that for me? After everything that I've done to you?" I ask. "Of course I will. I don't hold a grudge," she says. "Well, I guess that since I have to stay here overnight for monitoring or something, you're probably going to head home," I say, laying back in the bed. "Unless you want me to stay," she says. "You're not kidding right now, are you?" I ask her curiously. "Nope, not kidding. I'm here for however long you want me here," Vega says, taking my hand in hers. "Thank you, Vega. I appreciate it," I say, falling asleep pretty soon after.

The next morning, I wake up to find Vega still asleep beside my bed, and I remember our conversation from last night. She looks so peaceful when she's asleep, I think to myself with a smile. Wait, why am I thinking about her like that? I don't have any romantic feelings for her... or do I? Argh! I don't know anymore! Vega suddenly stirs in her sleep, then wakes up and looks at me. "Morning Jade," she says softly, rubbing her eyes and yawning. "Morning," I say. "So, what do you want to do, since it's Saturday?" She asks me. "I honestly don't really care what we do, as long as we do it together," I say, internally scolding myself. "Okay, well, let's go, then," she says, getting up from her chair. I get out of the bed and get dressed in the bathroom before joining her. We each get into our cars after agreeing to meet up at my house, and I turn down the radio in my car, having forgotten how loud I had it yesterday morning. One of my favorite songs is about to play, according to the host, so I turn it up just a little bit.

At my house, Vega and I decide to go to a local park for a walk. We decide to take my car, and we both sing along with the radio on the drive there. When we get there, I ask Tori if she wants to listen to some music on our walk, but she respectfully declines. Surprisingly, I accept it without an argument, which I wouldn't have done even yesterday. I notice that she's looking at me rather pointedly, so I ask her what's up. "I'm just thinking about a conversation I had with Beck yesterday," she says, and somehow, I know what she talked about with Beck yesterday. "So, he told you that I'm bisexual?" I ask her as if it's no big deal that I know. "How do you know that?" She asks me in surprise. "It was just a wild guess. That and I also had a feeling that it came up," I reply. "Okay. I don't know how you could've gotten a feeling that it just came up in my conversation with Beck yesterday without knowing anything else about the conversation, but whatever," she says. "Can I let you in on a little secret?" I ask her softly. "Go ahead," she says. "I know that you're a lesbian," I say, and she gasps at me. "How do you know that? I've hardly even told anybody about it," she says. "Well, you haven't exactly been subtle about it, Vega. I don't think that I've ever seen you flirt with a guy before. Plus, I see the way that you look at Cat," I say, and I feel a sort of jealousy when I say it. "Wha - I don't look at Cat that way! She's just a friend!" Vega says, but I can tell that she's blushing. "If she's just a friend, then why are you blushing?" I ask her. "I... I don't know..." she says softly. "It's fine, okay? I get it. Go on, be with Cat. Be good to her, 'kay?" I say with a hint of sadness in my voice. "Jade, I'm not blushing because I think of Cat as more than a friend! I'm blushing because I think you're hot!" She yells at me, then covers her mouth with her hand.

"You... I... what?" I ask her in disbelief. "Nothing!" She squeaks in fear. "Vega, be honest with me. Do you really think that I'm hot?" I ask her softly, and then I realize that I've pushed her up against a tree, so I back up a little. "I... Yes, Jade. I really think that you're hot," she says, meeting my eyes with hers. "Thanks, Vega. That's really... sweet of you," I reply, and we continue on our walk. My mind feels like it's been put into overdrive, trying to process not only what Vega said to me, but also how I feel about her. I mean, sure, she's pretty good-looking, and her high cheekbones are kinda cute... wait, did I actually just think that? Whatever. Either way, I can tell that she's still very apprehensive about telling me about some things, which brings up even more thoughts for me to process. All I really want right now is a nice mug of hot chocolate and a good book. And maybe, just maybe, I want Vega there with me, snuggled into my side with her head resting on my shoulder. One thought still comes up with some authority, though.

What happened to the old me?

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Well, I hope you enjoy this chapter. Bye for now!