You're Still Here For Me, Right? {Ranboo angst AU}

Chapter 8; The Stream

DREAM'S POV:

TW: Mentions of Past Abuse, Self-Harm, Mentions of Past Self-Harm, Blood, Cursing, Start of a E.D (Eating Disorder)

We all sit down the day after the incident, George seems slightly more pissed off than usual. I direct a question towards Ranboo "Can you tell us  what Tubbo was trying to make you do?" He looks up at me, before he can say a word George buts in "Will you stop wearing sunglasses and a mask its pissing me off." He slowly but hesitantly takes off the mask and glasses. "So back to what Dream asked me, Tubbo t-told me that i-if I, um if I-" He gets interrupted again by George "Spit it out already will you." his voice more stern. "George that is out of line, this is something hard for him to talk about. Were lucky he's going to tell us." Phil says confused by George's actions. "Who put you in a bad mood anyway?" Tommy asks. He stares at the table "Ranboo continue." Ranboo looks up from the table to start again. "He told me that if I didn't do what he says I would wake up in a hospital." Ranboo breaks into tears mid sentence. Tommy who was right next to him hugged him but soon broke it when George interfered again. "Ranboo I taught you for many years to stand up for yourself but you still can't, maybe you are a weakling." I go wide eyed at George. "What the hell man." Wilbur blurts out. Techno gets up in his chair and whispers something in George's ear. George cried. But soon stopped because everyone needed to know why Ranboo had been so off the whole trip and even before it. Techno finally breaks the silence by asking a question, it probably took quite a while to rephrase so it wasn't mean. "Ranboo, Tommy told me you had been beat up by multiple people, would you mind saying the other people?" I see Ranboo flinch at the question but he still answers as much as he doesn't want to. "M-m-my parents." Everyone including George goes wide-eyed. George only knew his dad did it to him. What had this poor child been through. "One time my dad did it right after the first day of 3rd grade. Somehow my dad found George's house and beat me up again on Christmas eve. My mom would say awful things to me that she was glad I had facial dysmorphia and she was glad that I was less smart then the other kids at school." This broke my heart to hear. At only 17 this is so much to deal with. "Everyone knows Tubbo did it but there is one thing I forgot to mention that made my facial dysmorphia worse. Up to 6th grade he would remind me everyday that I was ugly, then he got one of his friends to do it because he was sick of looking at my face. Yesterday he told me that I was ugly and the only things to make me less ugly are the mask and glasses." Tommy cries out "Ranboo I'm so sorry I wasn't there to help you I should've known something was wrong when I saw /neg Ranboo and what Tubbo tweeted out." Ranboo goes wide-eyed "Wait what did Tubbo do." Tommy looks up "You didn't know? Well Tubbo tweeted that you stole me away from him. People were saying awful things about you." I pull out my phone to check. He was right, awful comments next after the next. I decide to tweet out something "All the drama is dealt with now and it turns out Ranboo wasn't trying to steal Tommy, Tommy just wanted a break from Tubbo that's all!" I wasnt gonna tell them the truth and I'm almost sure Ranboo wouldn't of wanted me to either. If Ranboo wants he will tell them in his own time. I'm not pushing it. I mean Tubbo literally went to juvie last night. "So we still up for the stream?" Techno asks, we all nod even Ranboo. Ranboo hadn't shown his face on stream so he put back on the mask and glasses. I hit the 'go live' button and chat flooded in like crazy. Everyone was asking why we were not streaming and were we were. A lot of people were hyped about the meetup. "Hey chat!" I say in a genuine cheery attitude. I haven't got to stream in so long I miss this. Today we will just be answering some questions and stuff. Don't get to personal chat that's no good." I grin. "Tommy this question is for you, Will we be getting a media share stream soon?" Tommy steps closer "Sure, and I'll get the weirdest group planned for that!" I think we were all exited to stream, we hadn't streamed in so long. "Okay George question for you, Is Ranboo actually your brother?" George steps up "Of course he's not actually he's just my cousin but he is like a brother to me and I love him." He says with a wide grin on his face. 

Time skip because your not eating guava fruit right now

GEORGE'S POV:

Before the stream started Techno came up to me and said the one thing I didn't want to hear "Your part of the reason Ranboo is like this." It made my heart drop my breathes faster and I hated hearing this because it's true. I was part of the reason Ranboo was like this. I could have done something about Tubbo when I first met him. I never asked if Ranboo was okay after he cried in his room for hours, I even heard him call himself ugly multiple times. I never stopped him from doing it. The more I I think about it the more I worry. The stream had ended 30 minutes ago and I was standing in front of the sink with a knife.

TRIGGER WARNING STARTS HERE!

I slit one of my wrists, it felt so nice. I deserved this. I cut 20 more times on each arm then on my ankles and legs. I then told myself that I didn't deserve food so I wouldn't eat, I watched as the crimson liquid trickled down my soft delicate skin. I then heard Dream open the door I'm sure He was just trying to use the bathroom, holy shit I'm so stupid I forgot to lock the door. I used the knife to slit my neck for that one. Dream just stared at me then me took the knife out of my hand. "Why would you do that.." I look up at him "Because I deserve it." Dream walked closer to me "How long have you been doing this." I stare my gaze at the floor "GEORGE ANSWER THE QUESTION." I flinch "Since I was 14.." Dream looks at me wide-eyed "And why did you do it." I look back up at him "Because I let Ranboo get abused." He hugs me "Why did you do it today?" I cry "It's part of my fault he's like this. I COULD HAVE STOPPED TUBBO ALL THOSE YEARS AGO." Dream rubs my back "None of this is your fault okay. Don't listen to whoever is telling you it is." I stop crying "Dream I'm the one telling myself it's my fault." He breaks from the hug.

TRIGGER WARNING OVER!

Dream grabs a towel puts in under the faucet and gets it wet, then he wiped the blood off my neck, legs, and arms. Then Dream grabbed one of his hoodies and gave it to me to wear since I didn't have anything long sleeved. "I'm gonna get you help George."  I don't want help though so I tell him. "Dream I don't want help I just want to do what I normally do without anyone getting in the way of me." He walks out of the bathroom crying, I don't know his intentions but I also don't care. I roll down my jeans to cover up the cuts and walk downstairs to see lunch being made. I told myself I wouldn't eat, so to distract me from the food I watched Youtube on my phone. Tommy walked over to me "Hey Gogs, Dream told me and Ranboo what happened. You doing okay?" I turn off my phone "Did he tell anyone else?" He looks back "I don't think so." he looks toward me again "If you need help restraining from doing it I'll be here to help." I nod "Thank you Tommy." He sits next to me "I would also like to talk to you more about this Dream said there is more he didn't tell and I would have to get the information from you." I sigh in relief "I'm so glad he didn't tell Ranboo, I'll talk to you later alone." He nods "Just go to my room."

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A/N: Hey guys hope your having a good day today I had some troubles writing this one, I cried poor Gogy. Take care of yourself and ily bye!