Goner

ghost of you

Derek's pov:

I was at the hospital I was checking up on Beth when I heard cries from her room. I walked in and saw that everything looked normal and then I saw it she was awake. We did it mer and I did it. I went to go get the champagne bottle out of the trash can cause I didn't actually think it was gonna happen now I just have to mind Meredith. I know she's probably mad at me but this was her idea and she deserves to celebrate. I walked into merediths house I noticed the lights were on  "Meredith" I yelled I walked up the stairs and hoped she was in her room. When I walked in I saw nothing all her favorite things were gone. A little white peice of paper caught my eye. I opened it there was  four different letters. I saw the one with my name on it and opened it.
                        To Derek:
I don't know if you are ever going to read this because you don't want anything to with me. If do end up reading this I hope you know that I will always love you. Derek for the last 2 years you have been the best and worst thing that has ever happend to me. That night we met at the bar you told me that you were someone I needed to get to know to love. You were right, I've been in love with you since that night we went to go watch the sunrise by the farryboats. I knew I could trust you even when you picked addison over me I knew I still could trust and I still loved you no matter how hard I tried but the words that you said to me tonight hurt more than anything and I'm not completely sure why but they did. I have decided to leave Seattle Grace and do my residency somewhere else I wanted to make it easier on us both cause I don't think I could make it seeing you everyday but not being able to work with you. I will love you forever and maybe just maybe the  world will send us back together but for now I'm leaving.
                      -love M
She's leaving is all I got from that. How could I be so stuipd I love her but she wouldn't know cause I told her I wanted nothing to do with her who does that. My eyes started to feel with water I was trying so hard not to break down. I felt tears escape my face. I walked to her bathroom she had left her lavender conditioner and her perfume. I grabbed them both as tears ran down my face. I saw she left her favorite sweater her I think she did that on purpose. I grabbed her sweater and her perform walked out of the house got into my car and fully broke down. "DAMNIT FUCKING DAMNIT HOW COULD I SO STUPID."