It's Ok To Be Yourself

15

Since I was awake I couldn't get back to sleep, I got up and dropped the blanket I went into the bathroom and took off my clothes and got in the shower with Luke and wrapped my arms around his torso instantly.

He giggled, "you're like a little koala bear" he said washing my hair. I hummed and let him continue washing my hair. When we were both washed we got out and got dried, I left the room grabbing the blanket and wrapped it around me again like a cape.

I went back in the bathroom to see that Luke was styling his hair, I rolled my eyes, "It looks fine the way it is" I told him. He smiled sweetly at me, "Also I need my other voice thingy I forgot what it's called, you know the thing that changes my voice this should be my last one"

He nodded and turned around giving me a kiss on the head. I followed him out to the car and we headed to the hospital. After we went there we went to Starbucks and Luke got me a cream based caramel frappe and he got himself a cookies and cream frappe.

He drove us home steadily and I fell asleep once again. I woke to being carried into the house, "Put me down" I mumbled softly, "I'm heavy..."

Luke stopped dead. He gently placed me onto the couch and leaned over me, "You are not heavy" He said sternly.

"I am.. Have you seen me?" I asked looking at my stomach slightly emotional and self-conscious.

He gently placed his hand in my starch and rubbed it with his thumb, "you have a small bean inside of you baby.. you're not fat you're looking after an unborn child" he told me which I found was sweet. I smiled at him weakly.

"Ok.." I mumbled clearly unsure.

"Baby you're not fat..." He kept telling me.

I looked away only to be forced to look at him again, he gently placed a soft kiss against my lips and he put a hand on my stomach slightly rubbing it in a comfortable manner. I once again smiled weakly.

Luke stopped and lay behind me cuddling me. We just watched whatever we could find on the TV and talked about whatever we could.

"would you want anymore kids after this?" I asked him curiously.

"I mean, ye but only if you're ok with it" He told me.

"I am, my goal was to have 3 kids before I was full male which will be when I'm 23 when I'm old enough to have my female insides taken out"

"So I have 7 years to make your wish come true" He said to me. I smiled and nodded my head.

I couldn't help but look at his lips and pull him into a make out session.

we both pulled away breathless and giggled, "I love you" I told him.

"I love you too"

Suddenly, the news came on, " Mrs Howard has been arrested for drugging her husband so that he hates his son he stated; I quote, 'I'm So so so sorry Toby! I meant nothing I said, your mother has gone now you are safe' Handing it to Rachel for the weather forecast" The news reporter said

I was shocked, my mouth was open slightly. I didn't know what to do. Half of me was happy and the other half was angry.

"Well that explains that then" I said to myself out loud turning off the TV and getting up to go upstairs.

I felt two hands grab my waist lightly and pull me back gently, I was pulled into Luke's waist, "Don't do anything stupid because I swear if you hurt yourself I don't know what I would do" he told me sternly but softly, it sent shivers up my spine.

"Ok ok I won't.." I said. He kissed my head and refused to let go of me.

I stayed in his lap for awhile and curled up at some point. His left arm was behind my head and his right was around my waist. Every so often he would kiss my head and whisper 'I love you so so so much' which I found adorable.

I smiled and kissed his cheek then went back to watching the TV since we had turned it back on and put on 'Twilight'

I yawned and glanced at the clock it was 8pm and I was tired. Really tired.

Luke noticed and carried me to the bed and gently put me on it pulling the duvet over me to keep me warm, "I'll be right back" he told me then flew down the stairs. A few moments passed and he came back upstairs with two glasses of water, one for him and one for me.

I smiled at him as he climbed into bed next to me, I instantly snuggled up to him and rested my head on his chest making him smile and play with my hair, I listened to his steady heartbeat and the animals outside.

The owls hooting, the foxes calling, the crickets singing and the occasional bird chirping.

I fell asleep listening to all of the peaceful sound that surrounded us. I forgot most of my problems and dreamt about how lucky I was to have Luke.

I woke up at 3 am from my dream and I knew I wanted to marry him. I got up quietly and got dressed being careful not to wake up Luke.

I grabbed my shoes and wrote a note. I went down the creaky stairs and went outside, it was dark still and cold, I started walking towards the ring shop as the ground under me crunched. I guess it had snowed.

As the minutes went by I slowly got closer to the shop, surprisingly it was open. I slowly pushed the door open and the bell chimed as I did so. Someone from behind the counter popped up.

It was Max.