just like any teenager out the in this humongous world, she sat confused. there are indirect reasons as to why she would describe her feelings so. but this reason in particular, is because of her appearance. she questions it. why does she look the way she does, today? why does she not look pleasant in her eyes when she isn't smiling with her eyebrows raised pretending to be happy. for that is the only time where she actually looks decent. boy oh boy does she look good at any given moment of the day. she isn't just going to look like Meagan Good every time you catch her lacking-no. unfortunately she is imperfect and she knows it. she wishes she could actually see herself in the image of other people. just to know what they really think of her. she is confused by many things. like how she looks at her portrait as she stands looking in the mirror at her home almost everyday before the clock strikes 06:20 AM in the morning for her to leave, only to get to school at little after 07:00 AM to see herself looking like a depressed kitten. right. you read correct. a depressed fucking kitten. try to picture that, miserable, right? well that's just how she feels. she also wonders when she'll stop feeling this way. may be as soon as she leaves high school? possibly it actually is just the mirror at her schools senior toilet bathroom. ugh. *sighs heavily*. she cannot wait to stop feeling sympathy over the way she looks. she does not want to seem insecure- because she isn't!
she's pretty. quite cute to be honest with you. she knows this. yet, she only wishes she could feel that way more often than she feels like a depressed kitten. for herself and nobody else for she has no one to impress but herself.
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SA, KZN.
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