she cried a lot, but in the beginning of the second covid year she promised herself that she wouldn't cried-or rather she'd try her best not to. she definitely succeeded so far because she has cried probably just less than 10 times, and it's almost the end of November. so instead instead of crying, she held herself and scolded herself in her mind. she cried a river last year. she did not want a repeat of those depressive symptoms. only she knows of them because quite frankly, no one will ever know. her heart hurt every day. she cried herself to sleep.
"pretty face with pretty bad dreams
no one knows i cry in my sleep
waking up feeling like shit
it's a normal thing to feel like this
i don't care i'm feeling down
i wanna stay home never go outside
summer depression comes every year
i just want to disappear."
she knows not of any other verse that could describe how she felt. girl in red took the words right out of her mouth. she only made out by the Grace of God. further explanations will be vomited out later.
but for now she just wants to say, crying helps. if you feel like it-cry! she felt like crying today and she did. she expressed it by the feminine urge to post every event in her life on her status and she did just that. a maximum of 4 people-none including her closest friends- responded and she cried even more because it's just one of those things. don't ask her, "are you fine, love" because i promise you she will shatter further.
after a few tear drops and screaming along with her breaking voice to 'Cry Your Heart Out' by Adele, Album '30' released less than a week ago, she instantaneously felt better.
there you have it, a non-herbal remedy.
22 November 2021
7:43 PM
SA, KZN
YOU ARE READING
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