WRITTEN IN THE SCARS

Can't stop this thing we started

*** continues from previous chapter I WANT YOU***

We reached the bedroom and when we were on the threshold, I lifted him off his feet the way I had done that night on tour, then, I carried him toward the bed, letting him fall with a soft bounce on the mattress. We locked eyes for just a moment and then, I crawled on the bed and I approached his face. I put a soft kiss on his forehead, then one on his temple and then, another on the top of his nose; he knew that the next place would be his mouth because his eyes closed and I kissed his lips quickly before drawing back and look at him. If he wanted me to stop, that was the moment but he grabbed my T-shirt to drag me close for a kiss instead and I complied. We lost ourselves in the passionate kiss and my body moulded against his while his hands were on my back holding me tightly. I left his lips at some point, pulling away in order to straddle him, and when I did it, he searched for my eyes and placed both his hands on my thighs. I got rid of my t-shirt without losing eye contact and then, I helped him out of the t-shirt he was wearing. There was still a playful atmosphere despite the previous serious talks and the tension for what we were about to do, and I hoped that everything would go smooth the way I had always imagined. I shifted backward to get rid of his sweatpants and boxer briefs in one move and he was excited the way I was so I didn't waste time and I got up on the mattress getting rid of my pants and underwear, performing one of my best stripper moves. I was a little bit rusty but I didn't care and Miles was definitely appreciating my attempt to diffuse the tension a bit; his eyes were on me, waiting for the next move and his cock was definitely stiff enough to let me know he wanted me. I lowered myself on the mattress, straddling him, and I approached his ear whispering into it.

"I wanna be yours tonight, Miles... wanna be yours properly... wanna be one with you, my love" My mouth moved down to his jaw and neck, biting his sensible spots there and Miles didn't say anything but when I pulled back to look at him, his hand went immediately behind my neck and he dragged me to his lips for a kiss. Honestly, I didn't know if he felt the same urge I was feeling or if he simply didn't want to think too much and chicken out at the very last moment because well, as much as he was aroused, I knew that he was pretty nervous, definitely more than I was. When we parted, I outstretched my hand to get the lube from the drawer of the nightstand and I put it some on my fingers before beginning to stretch myself and get ready to be one with him. He was looking at me attentively, half mesmerized by my moves and half worked up in anticipation of what was about to happen and I was happy that he hadn't stopped me despite I could spot a hint of jitteriness in those brown puppy eyes. I smiled fondly at him and when I got a smile back, I knew that he was ready for what would follow and I relaxed, which was exactly what I needed to do in order to make things work.

I pulled my fingers out and I lubed Miles' cock after he wore a condom; I positioned myself on top of him, holding his cock while I pushed down slowly, agonizingly slow. Despite I had prepared myself and I had used some plugs in the past months just to get ready for this moment, Miles' cock was something different. I didn't remember having such difficulty to push myself down on him and Miles had immediately noticed my discomfort.

"Alex..." he called softly as he put his hands on my hips to get my attention.

"I am okay, babe." It was a lie but I wanted him desperately and what I needed right now was him to shut up and let me concentrate.

"You're not," he replied in a pretty concerned tone.

"Yes but... just give me a moment, okay?" I tried to relax but well, it wasn't easy the way I remembered and I wanted to scream out of frustration.

"Alex, come on... I don't want you to get hurt okay? This is supposed to be something pleasurable and I know it's aching instead." Miles tightened his hold on my hips and forced me to pull out and when I did it, I laid down next to him, hiding my face in the crook of his neck.