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The sun was fully out at this point, and despite my anger I couldn't let it show without being questioned. It was my fault completely for asking the desperate questions, and receiving answers that weren't benefiting me any. Just my luck, My room was peaceful at the moment. Gave me a chance to glance around, and remember that just last night he laid at my side. "...charls-" my brother Sev spoke as he knocked at my door.
"you want to go to the court?" he asked me with boredom plastered on his face. explained standing at my room door. The headache I had made me not want to attempt to move, let alone be around a loud crowd. "do I have to?" i questioned. I could feel him glancing at me, but I refused to actually look his way. "..it won't be long, i promise." snapping my head his way, he cocked his thick eyebrows at me shaking his head. "you should get ready." and with that he walked away leaving me there dumbfounded. It seemed as if everything revolved around Kareem once my little "crush" on him deepened. Since then I couldn't look at him without thinking the impossible or fantasizing about him touching me, and it didn't feel healthy to have him on my mind everyday, 24/7.
Dressed warmly Sev waited in the drivers side of his jeep. On his right was Jamie his girlfriend. She had a thing for staring people down, and that's what she did when I proceeded to the back seat. After five minutes no one spoke, it was an unnerving silence. "..so what's the point of going to the basketball court? it's cold outside." I squinted at the both of them, who paid no attention to me, and paid no attention to each other. It was now obvious that they were absurd with each other. Moments later we reached the court. Sev hoped out leaving Jamie, and I in the jeep. Curiosity had been killing me, and I wanted to ask her questions, but I didn't want to be in their personal life.
i sat on an bench that appeared to have shimmering ice covered on the seat. bundling up in my warm clothing I glanced around. no one was here to play ball. they were either here telling the "i love you." lie to their partner, or doing something illegal. I sat back watching everything unravel as the day carried on.
"Charlie?" an familiar feminine voice question me. Turing my head around, there stood Johnna with an brimming smile upon her face. damn. "..oh, Johnna! hi." I placed the phoniest grin on my face. "well!.. give me a hug!"she stretched her arms out insisting, and I had no choice. i glared at her before finally removing myself from the icy bench to give her an hug. she squeezed me..i bet that's how she squeezed- "hey charls." Johnna let me go. Kareem stood looking at the two of us with his hands stuffed him his pockets. my face became flushed, as my inside did flips. this was an normal feeling now. "uh-Reem I'll be in the car." Johnna pursed her lips glancing my way before stepping off. He nodded before putting his attention back on me. "..hey." i said with little to no emotion. Kareem squinted his eyes. "you alright?" he questioned me, and I wasn't, but I didn't want to tell him exactly how I was feeling. "I've been better.." looking down at the frozen ground I twiddled with my thumbs. "you're not gonna' tell me what's up, are you?" he then leaned his face in leading me to back away. "no, it's not your business." my demeanor well changed from chaste to bitter, His body was stiff, and uneasy at the moment which gave me the upper hand. "Charls, just this morning you weren't giving me this..this attitude." he stated the known. "yeah, because just this morning it was just me, and you." openly heartily I honestly told him, it was an relief to actually get that off my chest. squinting his eyes at me he relaxed his posture before parting his lips to speak. "Charlie, you know this is nothing but cheap talk! be real with me." he raised his voice at me for the first time ever. overwhelmed I blinked my eyes. "I am being real with you! stop yelling at me!" I wailed in defeat, obviously beat by his more masculine voice. "..wow, Charlie-you've never been so..so childish before." he squinted his eyes at me, now I could feel the warm tears stinging the rim of my eyes. "I'll speak to you tomorrow." pivoting made his way to his car, seconds later he had spun off leaving me dumbfounded.
the tears that threaten the leave my eyes had slowly fallen, it was like I had no control of them. It happened so fast, and it was..my fault. "You ok?" I turned to see Jamie approaching me. "y-yeah." quickly wiping my eyes, I weakly grinned. "Sev's mad at me." she then spoke. "..I'm, I'm pregnant." she stated. I was surprised only for a moment, this wasn't the first time she's been pregnant. "wow, really?" Jamie nodded. "he's mad at me because I actually want to carry the child this time ya' know?" she looked down as her strong Latin voice echoed. "he says he's scared for me, while I'm scared for our little niño." I could see an smile on her face, but the hurt she felt was noticeable, and it didn't help my situation. "..why didn't you carry the baby last time?" curiosity taking over me as I questioned her. "the doctors told me that my body was to fragile to carry a kid, and if I continued through with the pregnancy then there was an possibility I would die ya' know?" and no I didn't know, but I agreed.
After Sev was finished taking care of his business we left. Now with more than just Kareem on my mind I felt horribly sick in the head. I quickly hopped out of the jeep as soon as Sev parked, and headed straight to my room. There I could actually have an peace of mind. ding
"charls, I'm sorry for what happened earlier."
I read an message from Kareem. I desperately wanted to reply, but that would show that I cared a little too much. ding.
"Charlie call me when you see this, please."
the aggravation i felt was becoming overwhelming, and the only thing that felt safe to do was sleep.
I bundled up in my sheets, and fell into a slumber.
this is such a weak chapter, and I'm sorry for the late update for those who actually care :) descriptive comments really help me update, so that would be helpful. if typos I'm sorry this was updated on my phone. chapter 5 will have mature scenes so! this is an heads up!
