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Last night he fell asleep on my bedroom floor, and that night I couldn't sleep. I was more alone it's seemed than ever, and it was silent. I watched him quietly as he slept.this was new to me, and even at one moment his snores were nearly inaudible, that made this moment a bit more memorable. Now I know how he slept. I could feel myself drifting to sleep, but my weary mind was keeping me awake. Maybe my mother would wonder why my door was locked and wanted to come in to check on me. That was really all I worried of. "Charls?"
His husky voice echoed through out my small room. "Kareem-shh." motioning my hands to quiet him, he nodded in agreement. His eyes showed of vancant wonders. They were brown in the moonlight, and in sequences they scouted out my half empty room. "are you cold?" i questioned him eyeing the thin sheet that he covered himself with. "I'm good." he nodded turning his attention from me, but I couldn't tell by the goose bumps that's appeared on his flawless brown skin. "Kareem, you're cold...you don't have to lie. even men get cold sometimes." I joked with a measly grin. "ha. okay I guess I'm sort of cold, but I'll be okay." he sighed with lazy eyes. "you still sleepy?" i questioned him tilting my head slightly. Kareem simply nodded yet yawning at the same time. "But I've got to head back home-" "No! you can stay longer." I abruptly interrupted him. "-only, only if you want." pursing my lips, i mentally slapped myself.
I felt stupid honestly, that was a rush. By now he should understand my affections upon him, but also maybe he didn't.. that would be for the best. Kareem nodded before putting pressure on his arms to lift himself from the floor, and onto my cushy bed. There was an silence as he adjusted himself closer to me. "damn charls." he chuckled lowly, staring down at his twiddling thumbs. "Be like this forever." i could feel face becoming heated. be like this forever. that was becoming repetitive in my mind. "Of course. if,if you be how you are forever." I started, staring into space. wiping an stray curl from my face as I continued. "-keep being caring, keep being you." nodding my head, at my seriousness it was suddenly becoming overwhelming. "when you go off to college-I'll take it the hardest believe it or not." my eyes were then covered by an glassy film. were was this coming from? that was a question that I couldnt answer one hundred percent truthfully.
"'wanna know something Charlie? with the way my family living right now...I don't think I'm going to any college no time soon." his voice lowered as he looked at me. I couldn't disagree, we lived in a tough environment. But it was his job to step up, and make a decision but Once again there was a silence.
"...so I'll always be around."
He mumbled loud enough just so i could hear. "you seem to be here even when you're not, so where ever you go it'll be a piece of you still here." I smiled.
"What about sev?" he squinted his eyes, letting a husky chuckle escape his lips. "yeah, what about him." I joked before laying back shutting my eyes tight. just noticing how close he was to me heated me. Those fantasies in my thoughts replayed. I should be ashamed, that I could go from depression to becoming aroused so quickly, but I couldn't help my amateur hormones.
"charls.." he slowly spoke. "what?"
"no.. what are you doing?" reopening my eyes, his face was contorted with confusion yet with a weak grin. I then looked down at my hand that was nearly grasping at his own. noticing I jerked my hand roughly back to my body. sitting up, I squinted my eyes at him. "No..Nothing, it's cold I was grabbing for the sheets." What a weak excuse, but nothing else came in mind.
"Yeah, sure." he glanced down at me grinning. "it's okay Charls, ." he started before chuckling. "Not many girls can resist this." what girls though? he told me that he told me everything, but never has he brought up another female.
"mind if I ask, but what other girls Kareem. you've never brought any up." I smiled at him, but in the inside I was legit frowning at this situation, of course if he did I couldn't do anything.
"Well, my mother told me to never speak of a different woman, around a woman." he grinned a sly grin. ",but I'm Charlie Kareem, you can talk about them around me." i slightly nudged him.
"nooo, that's a set up charls," he chuckled leaning back on the bed. "you never tell me about them little boys you be hanging with." he shook his head closing his eyes while, my face froze befuddled.
"Come on Kareem, me?" I squinted my eyes. He knew he was my only friend, and that Sev wouldn't let me hang out with any of the towns boys. Sev says if their anything like him, he didn't want me around them. "Sure, whatever," he patted my bare thigh, lordy. my entire body shivered. "Last week at school, I Saw you with them grown ass little boys." he nodded, "You're not fooling anyone."
"Wow, I was with Sev." Shaking my head lightly. "I only hang out with you. and it's weird, I need to get out more." My anxiety was beginning to rum its engine at the way he was avoiding my question. I was tempted to annoy him with questions, that's what I was intending to do.
"No, Kareem seriously now. anyone you talking to recently?"
like it was any of my concern, I still wanted a truthful answer. He had sighed and gritted his teeth together.
"yeah, johnna."
wow.
"oh wow! johnna like next door to me?" a fake smile plastered across my face. "thats cool."
maybe this week he was hanging out with me more because last week he barely showed his face, and Jhonna looked much more happier that week, but I didn't notice it then, but now I noticed it.
"mhm." I felt his glance staring me down horribly, my throat was burning from the awkwardness. gracious.
"hmm," he began to chuckle. "this is why my momma said never to speak of another girl, in front of another female, huh?" I shrugged.
"it really doesn't matter to me." the words pressed so bluntly, but spoken clearly from my mouth.
the springs on his side unraveled, his cold hand touched the skin of my shoulder.
"then why is your face red charls? I know you a bit better then you know yourself."
"no seriously, I'm not mad."
His hand rose from my shoulder, then gently grasped onto my tiny ear lobes.
"so, why are your ears warm Charls? your room is freezing," he stated. "this only happens when you're angry." confident that he new my emotion, It was hard for me to hide them. I stayed quiet. "Listen, I know I'm cute, but you can't have me all to yourself." he smiled at me pinching my cheek gently, probably trying to bring my vibrant attitude back, and he did.
many more personal questions roamed my mind, but they were all too inappropriate.
I couldn't stand to sight of someone touching him in a passionate way. it was petty, I know, but he's 18, he can say he hasn't had sexual relations, but I could tell he has. All guys have the same attitude when it comes to sex it seemed, and he acted just like my brother Sev. Distant for a while, then he's back to spending his time with us, also quiet when he's around me, and hardly talks when spoke to.
I just knew he had touched someone, but didn't like to think of it. damn.
"you're still weird to me." he then chuckled. I just nodded.
"You've always been weird to me." I groaned.
this is short. i need feedback, how do you feel about Kareem? mostly how do you feel about Charlie? :)
