The Lovecats - McLennon

Chapter 6

6th October 1862

Music reccomendations: Album by The Cure called Japanese Whispers. My all time favourite.

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"Where do you live John?" Paul looked at him as they were walking out of the pub.

John didn't reply for a few seconds. „Well it's actually about an hour long walk."

„Oh that's alright John, I mean you offered me to stay in your house so why should I be complaining." Paul smiled. He really enjoyed talking to John and a long walk didn't bother him, on the opposite he felt on top of the world because he was able to spend time with this interesting man outside in a night atmosphere and he found him.

„So Macca, what's your occupation?" John asked.

Paul furrowed his brows. "Oh well, I'm a detective actually."

John's heart almost stopped beating. 'No, No, NO!' His face turned pale and his stomach started to tighten. 'He can't be a detective. Please no. I hope that I'm dreaming.' John's stomach screwed up even more. He needed to throw up immediately. He didn't even notice that he was standing in one place. His vision was turning black and his head was spinning, eyes were slowly closing. This feeling had happened alot of times already before but he had never felt it this intensly like he did now. 'Why?'

„John are you alright?" Paul came closer to him, took a hold of his hand automatically. Paul was so concerned about the man that he didn't think twice about his actions, he sounded very confused aswell.

„Pau-" And with that, John fell on his back.

„JOHN!" Paul screamed and sat on his knees beside him, patted his cheeks to wake him up.

„What in the bloody hell is happening?!" He shouted, tried to wake him up.

No reply.

„John, come on. Wake up please." Paul felt hopeless.

John was still not replying.

„John please wake up. You got this." Paul was whispering calm words into John's ears.

Then all of sudden. „Pa-Paul?" John slowly opened his eyes while he was hearing Paul's soothing voice. His soul was warmed.

„Oh my god you are alright. What happened Johnny?" Paul uttered and sounded very worried He immeadiately hugged John.

There was something in that hug. They were both feeling it. They were meant to do this. The feeling of it was so right for no reason. Or maybe there was a reason. They were hugging tightly. Their bodies were shaking.

'What is the thing about him, that just makes me want to look into his eyes till I am blind, that just makes me want to talk with him till I run out of my vocal chords?, that just makes me want to hear his voice till im deaf, that just makes me want to hold him tight till my muscles can't work anymore?' John's thoughts were racing.

John was so confused about the new feeling that he has never felt before. He had never felt this warm and loved, and nobody used to care about him like this. It just made him want to cry. 'What the fuck is that feeling seriously?' 'He is truly so special to me.' And he hold on Paul tighter.

„John hey, it's alright. I am here." Paul said, running his hands through John's hair. He had wanted to do it for so long.

John was now crying to Paul's chest. He felt truly bewildered about himself. About this new feeling. About being loved. About everything. He didnt't even want to kill Paul, which was also peculiar. He didn't know, it just felt like Paul was so important to him that he just couldn't do it. 'Is this queer? I don't care. He just makes me feel right and that's all I need.'

And they were sitting down on a grass, holding onto eachother tightly. They were confused about their feelings but everything felt right at the same time. They have known one another just for a few hours but they were already so attached.

„John I think we should go. It's really late and you need rest, especially after this." Paul spoke up and soothed John's cheek as he looked in his eyes.

Paul was showing his care towards John. It has put John into an complete shock.

„You are right." John said as Paul was standing up and then offered John a hand to take which John gladly took.

They were walking through the dark streets of Liverpool at 4am still hand in hand, enjoying the silence and eachothers presence. There were no people outside so they were still holding hands.

John was leading the way to his house.

Paul was still thinking about why John fainted. It has really worried him, but at least he was happy that he could help him and be close to him. He was so content about the fact that it just wasn't awkward, it was comfortable and astonishing experience with this new man. And his heart was warming while he held John's hand. Something just felt very right, he was here for it principally when it was with John.

Paul was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't even realise they were already standing in front of John's house. He got lost in thoughts again.

Paul's jaw has dropped when he saw John's house.

The house was huge, in rectangular shape with towers and dormers. Tall, skinny windows rounded at the top. They entered the house and they were walking throught a huge living room with walls in irregular shapes. Furniture and ornaments were all around. Paul loved the heavy, colorful curtains. On the walls he saw beautiful flowery wallpapers. Alot carpets and rugs were on a stone materialed floor. The house was well heated and clean. Paul was looking everywhere, turning his head from a one side to the other. He was mesmorised by the house he was in. 'He looks rich.' John was looking at Paul with a small smirk while Paul was appreciating his house.

„H-how are you this rich?!" Paul was speechles and his eyes were glowing.

John sighed. „We will talk about this later Paul." And he pierced eyes to the ground.

„Alright." Paul sounded very muddled.

John looked at the clock on the wall. „It's fucking 5am Macca, let's go to sleep I'm honestly very fatigued." John said while he was gazing at Paul.

„Where should I sleep?" Paul asked, he felt that his stomach was tightening a little bit from strain.

„Come upstairs with me." John answered and took Paul's hand fastly to his own. He didn't realise what he has just done. He entered his room fastly and took Paul with him.

„Wait." John said and left Paul there alone.