Make It Right [JIKOOK]

Careful

Jungkook's POV

"What were you thinking?!" I flinched at the booming voice of Kim Namjoon. His jaw protruded as he glared down at me. Jimin slid into the position next to me on the couch, gripping my fingers tightly in support.

"No one even thinks anything of it, though! It's just being written off as two bros having a fun birthday trip," I defended.

Namjoon grit his teeth, his jaw clenching tightly before he answered. "I told you to be careful. This," he pointed to his phone screen where the G.C.F. video I'd uploaded was pulled up, "This is not careful, Jungkook. This is literally telling people that you're dating Jimin."

He raked a hand over his face as he lost himself in thought. I dared a glance at Jimin while Namjoon's attention was not directed at me. Jimin's face was carefully crafted into a blank expression, but I knew him well enough that I saw the hint of the smile he stuffed down under the surface. It bolstered my confidence to know how much he'd appreciated my boldness. It was so difficult to love someone so much and not be able to tell a single soul about it. It hurt.

"So what?" I said without thinking. "So what if I do tell people I'm dating Jimin. I am dating him. Why can't I show people that I love him? What's so wrong about love?"

Jimin's eyes crinkled into my favorite half-moons as he bowed his head, suddenly finding his feet very interesting as he hid a wide smile. I intertwined our fingers and defiantly lifted my chin to Namjoon who couldn't have been more baffled.

"Jungkook...there's nothing wrong with it. There's nothing wrong at all. It's not that you can't or shouldn't show Jimin you love him or even be affectionate toward him publicly sometimes. Like I've been saying, you just have to be careful. This affects more than just the two of you and it's more than just our reputations at stake. If it were just a couple of hateful people not liking us because two of our members are gay, I honestly wouldn't care, but...Jungkook, please understand, we could lose everything. Our entire careers. All these years of work and struggle. Everything we fought for and everything we've finally started to gain could end in a heartbeat if people knew the truth about the two of you. I'm not asking you to hide because I don't want you to date or I'm ashamed or even that I think something is wrong with telling people. I'm asking you to hide so we don't all have to sacrifice everything we have built for ourselves for it."

 I felt like I was made of Jell-O as I considered what he said, trembling slightly. Namjoon sighed heavily before continuing. "I promised to help protect you both, and I will no matter what. I can't stop you from doing what you want, but I hope you'll pay us back by protecting us too?"

"I-I'm sorry, Namjoon-hyung. I didn't think about it affecting all of you." I looked to each of the members, fighting back tears seeing the fear etched into each face I turned to. "I'll be more careful. I promise."

Namjoon's shoulder's drooped with relief. "Thank you. I know it's not easy, what you two are going through, and I'm sorry that you have to deal with this, but I appreciate you both for being understanding of our struggles with it also. For the time being, I think it's best if we separate you two in interviews and as much as possible while we're performing. That should settle down some of the debating and shipping a bit."

He turned to leave, but stopped himself before taking our interlocked hands into his own. "What can we do to make this easier? Is there...is there anything we can do to help you?"

Jimin stared hard into Namjoon's remorseful eyes, a familiar pang of jealousy itching to find its way to the surface as I watched them. Jimin nodded softly, answering, "Don't make me be apart from him."

Guilt tore through Namjoon's face. "I can't do that, Jimin. Not publicly at least, but in private, I can make sure that you two aren't separated. Okay?"

"What do you mean?" I questioned.

Namjoon's gaze fell on me. "I mean, we can get hotel rooms for you both so it appears that you each have your own, but you can stay with each other. You can take trips together and do G.C.F. videos like this again, but we'll come with you and stay to ourselves so it isn't as obvious. We'll basically just cover for you so you can still have time together, but it won't be clear what's going on behind the scenes. I'm sorry, but that's the best I can do."

Jimin nodded sadly. "Then it's what we'll do. As long as I get to be with Jungkook, I'm happy."

He wasn't. I knew he wasn't because I knew him. Jimin wanted what I wanted. To show his true feelings for the man he loved to the world. To scream it from a mountaintop and be able to kiss and hug and hold hands any time, anywhere. This would do for now, but this was no way to live forever.

I bit my lip, holding back everything I wanted to say and every emotion that ripped me to pieces inside. "I guess that we do it your way, hyung."

Namjoon's devastation was evident on his handsome face as he nodded, dropping our hands and leaving us alone as the other members followed him out.

"One day, Jimin. This won't be forever. One day, I'll tell everyone how much I love you."

Jimin smiled warmly at me, softly pressing his lips into mine.

"One day," he agreed.