Love On Tour - H.S.

The Days After The Break up - 1

(no tiktok reference)
italics = flashback

y/n's pov

First Day After The Break Up

It's the day after the San Antonio show. I said my goodbyes to the band and the rest of the crew last night after the show. I didn't bother saying goodbye to Jeff or Harry, cause I knew they'd just make my blood boil even more.

Sarah and I talked for a little bit before I took my uber to the airport last night.

"I'm really sad that you have to go, honey. You don't deserve any of this. If only I could kick Harry's ass."

"Sarah, that's not necessary." I laugh. "I wouldn't want you losing your job, I know how much this means to you."

"I know, but it just sucks cause we had so much planned and now it's all going to shit because of Harry." She sighs, looking at me with sad eyes.

I hated when people would do that. It made me feel small and shallow, but I knew this wasn't the only time I was going to get those looks. Especially once the knews breaks out that Harry and I are broken up, I'm gonna be seeing those eyes everywhere. All I can do is shake it off.

"Don't worry, Sar. We'll get to do some of those things still, I'm sure this isn't the last time you'll be seeing me. I know Jeff's gonna want to keep this act between me and Harry going so I'll probably be back in a couple of days." I shrug, I know Jeff's every single move.

He's going to call me and tell me about how he doesn't want people finding out about the affair, so I'm gonna have to come back and pretend. Then after I leave, Jeff's going to make it look like I left Harry and everyone's going to feel sympathy for him, and then boom he's going to hit everyone with the release of 'Pleasing'.

He's smart. He knows how to make his marketing moves. Even if it means hurting me.

"You're right. Jeff is always planning everything, but I'm still sad I won't have you around, we all will."

"It's alright, Sar. I'll see you soon, but I have to go now. My uber's here. I love you. Give the little one kisses for me every night, okay?"

I landed bright and early at JFK. My sister and her fiance met up with me and we headed over to my family's house where we had some brunch. It was nice being home again. I haven't seen my family in a while and being around them made me feel safe.

That's how I used to feel around Harry, but that's not the case anymore.

"I'm gonna head into my room, I need to be alone for a while."

"Go ahead, baby girl. We understand. We'll call you when it's time to leave." My mom replies.

I excuse myself and head to the carpeted stairs where my little yorkie mix puppy was sleeping. I pick her up and head down the narrow hallway into my room.

I open the door and I'm hit with the familiar scent of Harry's cologne. I walk around my bed to see a picture of Harry and I on the nightstand.

It was from the very first time I slept over at Harry's apartment in New York. All my life of being a fan of One Direction and finding out that Harry only lived 20 minutes away from me was the biggest shock of the country.

We were sitting in his living room bunched up in fur blankets, watching a Christmas movie, and holding our hot cocoa, while Harry kissed my cheek. The smile I had was genuine and real. We were so happy, that night was special to us, especially to me.

I had let him take my virginity that night, cause I thought he was the one. It's not like it was the first night and I just gave it to him. We waited for 2 months until we were both ready and knowing Harry, he didn't fuss about waiting. That was the Harry I fell in love with, the one who cared about my feelings and made sure I was comfortable about everything.

So, we did it.

Do I regret it? Of course not.

It was special to me and I wouldn't change a thing about it.

And that's where Harry got the nickname 'Special Girl', my favorite nickname out of all of them because this one had a meaning behind it.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when my dog jumped on me. I got under the covers and got to thinking. What did I do wrong? Was I not enough for him? I was always so afraid of Harry leaving me for someone else, someone famous and it finally happened. Even though he promised me it wouldn't happen.

Now here I am, back in my old room in my parents house. Lying in my old bed crying about the jerk who promised me the world.

I don't have any other place to stay. I sold my apartment after a year of dating Harry, he asked me to move in with him and I was hesitant. Scared of something like this happening, so the first time I told him 'No', but he was so persistent and I finally caved in, just like I always do.

I can't go back to Harry's even though I probably should because all of my stuff is there, but I just don't have the courage to get up and my parents planned on going to the city so and I quote 'can spend some quality time with them because I never see them'

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Well Y/N's home, let's see what happens ;)

Also, I sometimes hate when my tiktoks would go viral because people be hating 😅 But that won't stop me from posting more 😏

There's a new character coming soon 😉 Any guesses? He's famous, an actor, and has curly hair.