The Unexpected Point of View|2022

• All she is to me •

All she is to me.

Burning desire of pleasuring fire,
She was all to get me bizarre.
Like a wildfire no one could deny her,
Define her, an absolute stunner .

Some call her a thorn, thier own
opinion rotting like a horn.
But could anyone tell the worth of silk,
Without watching her getting torn.

All she was to me, and
All she is wih me.
All she will with me,
started wih she, me and her.

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Holding my hand at the beach you were smiling with me. Wading into the sea waves we were looking at each other with affection.

You looked at the sunset at the brim of the sea water where the moon was rising above the horizon. Swearing that you would never leave me.

I nudged you because it was funny how a high schooler like you would promise something so deep but then you took my other hand and kissed the knuckles softly, melting me with your intimidating gaze that was so pure and peaceful that it could've forced my mind to believe in your every lies.

But who knew you were a lie yourself...

You said that she was so innocent that it melted your heart. You saw her as the mother of your children, you secretly fell in love with her but why you did this to me?

Was I a toy to you? You thought I didn't had a heart?

Oh trust me, I could never get over you because you were my first in everything but then the question was," Is love greater than self respect?"

I questioned myself, blamed myself for not being worthy enough for your love. It took me so long to understand that I loved you more than myself that I didn't cared if I was being loved.

Well, you taught me a great lesson.
To love myself.
Therefore, I let you go because you were toxic to me, to us. You should better be with the person who made you feel special.

I could not see you in my dreams anymore because it hurts.

I remember leaving the past years ago and starting my live again from the start. I was smiling but was I satisfied? Because as soon as I saw you with her my blood boiled.

The girl who ruined everything that was mine. She had everyone who was supposed to stay with me.

She overshadowed me, destroyed me which no one deserved. Snatching away every reason of happiness from me she smirked in victory.

Erasing my present she paved her future, that's when I became hollow. And there came the point where I lost the battle from fate and wanted to drop my hopes until...

I found the truth.