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VI. Tricycle

It's already evening, I forgot what night is it, as long as I'm in our tricycle on my way back home. I'm just recalling back and just watching all around. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I held up my phone. It has 1 unread message from Jia. That was a group message. Considerably, I'm naughty and too silly to her. I texted her back. I did Swave style. Hell yeah!

Those styles,

"kamusta kana Jia?'

"Titikahusay naman la Jia"

"I miss you so much"

"Labyu"

Well, that was bullshit actually, but seriously, I do not really know how to talk to her, how to bug out again without experiencing such awkwardness. Sometimes I'm thinking that what if Jia is didn't came to my life, is it much easier to talk to her? I'm also thinking what if I only met her just today.

As time passes by, because this is experiences to live life, they have come to separation with her boyfriend because of serious reasons.

I approached Jia. I wonder how's she doing? We had a conversation through text. She shared to me the other theatrical roles of her life as well as her love life. Well, I'm interested. I decided to share what's with my life too.

Subsequently, I'm having a quite conversation with her. Because of that, She's making me happy. She didn't know that she's already telling me about herself. The way she's telling me her part. I'm falling in love again on how she would react. I miss her terribly. After we discussed some other things. I decided to make her smile maybe? even just a little bit. She's giving me good feedback. I did crazy awkward stuffs again and finally, something went wrong.

Jia said that I'm too fast to make up with her again. She's not ready. She said that this is not the right time to have that kind of relationship that we're dreaming of. She said it's better to be free first and have a life. Perhaps someday she will be ready to have time with me MAYBE. She will do first her plans and be fair to those she made a life.

In this instance, I truly understand her. I'm not sad, but still a bit loved because she showed me that maybe in my thoughts, I still have a chance to have her again. I thought something went wrong but, eventually she's right and it was very right.

Jia: "Duh waray pa ngan magusa katuig tam break up haha waray na gad ak feelings ha iya pero gusto kasi sure na ak tas unfair daw adto ha imo part (KUN BA)" - March 28, 2015 9:31pm