lovers & friends × blake griffin [complete] {editing}

34 // blake's emotional rollercoaster

Blake's POV||
"Shit, Christina! You feel so good, baby," I grunted, "I missed you so much."

"Uuunnhhh! Oh God, Blake! I missed you too, baby."

I held onto her hips and thrusted harder, then leaned down to kiss her lips.

"Fuck, Blake, I'm gonna..."

I quickly woke up, confused and horny. For the last three weeks, I've been having these kinda dreams about Christina.

What the fuck was that about?

Shrugging it off, I got up to brush my teeth and take a shower. When I got out, I got dressed, then took Chaney for a walk.

When we got back, I saw Christina come out of her house the same way she has for the last couple of weeks -- shorts, a tank top and her hair was in a high ponytail. She'll leave, and she doesn't come back until three hours later. She never works out at the gym, so I wonder where she goes.

Ugh. Why do you care so much, Blake?

I snapped out of my thoughts and realized Christina had already left. I put Chaney in the house, then walked to Christina's house and knocked on the door.

"The fuck you want?" Chasity asked, opening the door.

"What's your problem?" I asked, folding my arms over my chest, "what the hell did I do to you?"

She closed her eyes and let out a sharp breath, "you dumped my sister for no reason, then treated her like absolute shit. How the fuck do you expect me to act towards you?"

I didn't say anything because I didn't have anything to say.

"Anyway, why'd you come over here?" she asked.

"I wanted to ask you something, but never mind," I said, turning to walk away.

"You interrupted my Pretty Little Liars binge, so you're gonna tell me why you came over here."

I somehow managed to laugh at the sassy fourteen year old in front of me. Where the hell did she get this attitude from?

"Can I come in?"

She rolled her eyes and sighed before moving to the side to let me in. I followed her into the den and we sat on the couch.

"Now, what do you want?" she asked, looking at the TV.

"Where does your sister go everyday?" I asked, getting straight to the point.

She paused the show and turned to look at me with a smirk on her face.

"Why do you care?" she asked, raising her eyebrow, "what she does is no longer your concern."

"I'm just...curious."

"Yeah, I bet you are," she mumbled, "but she's been taking a boxing class. She's tired of you & your ugly ass minions so when it's time to throw hands, she'll be ready."

I just sat back and listened to everything Chasity said. I thought she was lying at first because Christina's not a violent person, but then I thought about all the shit she's been through recently.

"I hope she beats yo ass," Chasity smiled, looking at me.

"Why would you say that?"

"Because you deserve it," she smiled.

I rolled my eyes, sighed and sat back on the couch. I started thinking really hard until Chasity snapped me out of my thoughts.

"You miss her don't you?"

"No," I lied.

She sucked her teeth and narrowed her eyes at me, "shut yo lyin' ass up. If you didn't miss her you wouldn't be over here all up in her business. You need to put your got damn pride aside and talk to her."

"Wh--"

"Shut up. I'm not done," she said, "Christina's a beautiful girl, Blake; she could get any guy she wanted, and you know that. You better stop fuckin' around or you're gonna lose her for good."

She was right, but I didn't wanna give her the satisfaction of knowing that because I knew she would rub it in my face.

"Whatever," I mumbled, standing up to leave.

She shook her head and turned her attention back to the TV.

"You can act like you don't miss Chris all you want, but you're gonna be crying when she becomes Isaiah & Carter's stepmom," she said with a devious smirk.

I got pissed, then started thinking about how Christina & Matt kissed last night. Chasity definitely knows what to say to get under people's skin.

"Christina Barnes," she said, snapping me out of my thoughts again, "that has a nice ring to it, don't you think?"

I rolled my eyes and walked out of the house with Chasity's obnoxious laugh lingering in my ear.

******

"So you had another dream about Christina, huh?" DJ smirked.

"I don't get what this shit means," I lie for the second time today.

Matt, DJ & my mom are the only people who know about my annoying ass dreams. My mom basically told me that this is what I get for the way I treated Chris and she hopes I suffer.

I can't believe my own mom turned against me like that.

I figured now I could at least talk to DJ & Matt, but I soon realized that was a bad idea.

"It means your dumb ass is feeling guilty for breaking up with her for no reason," Matt said, making DJ laugh.

Hearing Matt speak only made me think of him & Christina.

"Speaking of Chris, I saw you two last night," I said to Matt.

His eyes widened and he scratched the back of his neck. "You saw that?"

"Saw what?!" DJ asked, "what did you do?!"

"Christina & I kissed last night..."

DJ jumped off the couch and hit Matt in the chest while laughing. Why is this funny to him?

"Wait, is she a good kisser?" DJ asked.

"Hell yeah. She --"

"Are y'all really having this conversation about my ex?" I asked a little annoyed.

Why the hell am I so jealous all of a sudden? Where the hell is this coming from?

"Why does it bother you so much?" Matt asked, "she's just a hoe, right?"

"Don't talk about her like that!" I said defensively.

"I was just quoting what you said," he shot back, "you're the one that said you were glad to have her out of your life, so why do her decisions bother you? I mean, unless you still care about her."

Both DJ & Matt smirked at me, and I felt embarrassed because I got caught. Yes, I still care about her. Shit, I still love that girl. She was my best friend, and it's gonna take a lot more than her cheating on me for me to stop caring about her.

"You still love her, don't you?!" DJ asked, with that goofy ass grin of his.

"Man, of course I do. I never stopped loving her."

"Well," Matt started, patting me on the back, "you better do something about it before she gets over you and moves on. You know there are a bunch of guys that would kill to be with her. And if you wait too long, I might just make her the next Mrs. Barnes."

He & DJ laughed, and I just glared at them. Any other time I probably would've laughed at that, but right now I got too much shit on my mind.

I love Christina, and I want her back in my life because ever since we broke up, things have only gone downhill for me. But after all the things I said to her, there's no way in hell she'll take me back.