Can I call you mine?

53. Marry me

JUNGKOOK'S POV

I suddenly started tearing up when her warmth got detached from me as I knew this was the last time I would hold her this close. My heart was throbbing and I was afraid if she would hear my heartbeat so as soon as we reached the beach I dropped her.

Her gaze never left me and the thought of telling her to leave me and forget me was in itself painful to bear. My blurry eyes welled up as I looked into her eyes. Going closer to her I held her hands and wanted to tell her about the motive of this date.

I wanted to say it was a farewell date. The last date we would have before I disappeared from her life.

But I couldn't when I noticed her holding my hands more tightly. She was worried and stared at me with her doe eyes. I couldn't make myself to say that. I knew hyungs would scold me to leave her but they don't know I had already planned to hand the position of Mafia king to Jimin.

I wanted to take a break, a retirement seemed more pleasurable. So, surely the next morning would bring a new start for everyone while I go back into the shadows.

She leaned closer and was about to cup my face before I stepped back. I wiped my eyes and for making the last good memory I gave her a genuine smile. I licked my bottom lip and gulped before saying something that seemed the most correct thing to say that time.

"Soya, can I sing you song just like you did for me?"

She was surprised after hearing me mentioning about that song. She never expected me to say this neither I did, this song was totally unforseen. A weak smile crept up on her lips as she nodded and I smiled like a teenager mad in love.

Closing my eyes I took a deep breath then gradually opened my eyes. Her face was the first thing I saw and that feeling gave me butterflies. I looked straight into her soul without blinking while my glossy eyes gave her blurry view so I again closed my eyes, letting my mind roam in infinity filled with our memory.

Without wasting any time my lips parted as I started singing my heart out.

[A/N: You can choose among the following songs- Let go; Your eyes tell; film out]

"Before we say farewell, let go, but I am lost in the maze of my heart.
From stereo to mono, that's how the path splits.

If this is how fate falls apart then my last letter,
Penned words, written then erased, feelings for you.
So many to let go, unpuzzle my lego at a level where it can't return to its original shape.
So be it, don't cry, I'mma let you go and fly

Hectic days,keeping myself busy, distraction filled schedule
Burnt into the back of my mind like a tattoo
We cannot return to those days,
If I could I'd call your name.
No, but I'll accept your blame, it really is the time to say goodbye

Before we say farewell, let go, but I am lost in the maze of my heart.
From stereo to mono, that's how the path splits.
In order to release your hand right now,
I gotta let you know, that I need to let you go
Hard to say goodbye but I can't run, I'm ready to let go."

A lone tear slipped from my closed eyes before I opened them. My eyes landed on her face which was covered with her tears stains. She was crying so badly that I wanted to hug her and not leave at all but I had to get away from her, I was toxic for her and that made me look away.