Mismatched

Chapter 7: What we've become

Sometimes I wish that my life is just like any of the stories I have written, because I know it will all end up with a happy ending. Sometimes, I would wish that life has a replay button, so I could go back to the past and correct my mistakes. Pero kahit pa meron nun, hindi pa rin magbabago yung fact na hindi ako magkaka-anak. I’m an infertile woman, and I feel worthless.

I watch my husband as he took off his shirt, his back facing me. He did not speak again pagkatapos ko siyang yakapin kanina. I know he’s mad, lalo pa at iniwan niya ang training niya just for me.

“Sino yung kasama mo?” he asked, still not facing me. Naka damit na siya.

“Si- si Rafy, childhood friend ko.” I said feeling nervous.

He turned to face me with a blank expression. “You know it’s not good to see a married woman with another man.”

Kumunot ang noo ko. I don’t like the words he’s saying. “Are you trying to imply something?”

“Bakit Grace? Alam mo naman sigurong mai-issue ka sa ginagawa mo!” he said angrily. “You are in the showbiz industry. Alam mong maraming matang nakatingin sa’yo. So please stop flirting with other guys!”

My hands landed on his face. I gave him a hard slap. “Flirting with other guys?! Seriously Kief?!”

He touched the area where I slapped him. “Una si Jeron, ngayon naman yung Rafy na yon?! Sino naman ang susunod?”

“How many times do I have to tell you na trabaho lang yung sa amin ni Jeron! For pete’s sake, may girlfriend siyang tao!” I exclaimed. “And you know how showbiz works Kief! Lahat nalang binibigyan nila ng malisya. You should know that Kief! You’ve been there!”

Now, his issues with me and Jeron are back. I’ve worked with Jeron in a movie, and we’ve been together almost everyday. Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla nalang nagbago si Kiefer when it comes to me and Jeron. Perhaps, dahil sa mga chismis tungkol sa amin ni Jeron, which are all untrue. Pero alam naman ni Kiefer na hindi yun totoo. Siya ang mahal ko at hindi si Jeron. Siya ang asawa ko at hindi si Jeron. But why is he acting as if hindi niya alam yun?

“It’s not my point Grace.” he said, trying his best to calm down pero halata pa rin sa boses niya ang galit. “What I’m saying is, you need to be careful with the people you’re with! Hindi kung sino sino lang.”

I snorted. “As far as I can remember, sinabi mong I was flirting with other guys. In the first place Kief, hindi kung sino-sino si Rafy. I’ve known him for a very long time!”

“Mas kilala ko pa nga siya kaysa sa’yo.” I said.

He looked at me fiercely. Punong-puno ng galit ang mga mata niya. And this is the very first time he looked at me like this. “So what are you trying to say? Na nagkamali kang pinakasalan mo ako?”

I was on the verge of crying, but I tried to stopping it. “That’s not what I meant.”