Mismatched

Chapter five: He's back

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I always thought we would have our happy ever after. But I guess I was wrong. That day we got married, was only the start of the end. Our relationship is slowly falling apart. I know that day would come, when he will ask me his freedom. I don’t know what to do if that would happen. I don’t know if I’m ready for that day to come.

“I’ll be away for two weeks.” He said while his back facing me. He has his backpack on, and on his right shoulder is his sling bag which he uses whenever he has training.

“Wag mong pagudin ang sarili mo.” He said, still not looking at me. “Take care.”

I watch him as he slowly opens the door of our room. I watch him as he takes steps away from me.

Walang salita ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. I cannot utter a single word, I cannot even beg for him to stay. Sino ba ako para pigilan siya? I cannot even give him a child.

I shifted my gaze on my laptop. It’s been awhile since I last read the previous novels I have written, Love Game and Game of Love.

Ilang beses ko na ‘tong nabasa. I’ve even memorized all the lines. But I never grew tired of reading those. Kasi everytime binabasa ko yun, naaalala ko na kahit minsan, minahal ako ng lalaking mahal ko.

Because this time, I feel like he has completely fallen out of love with me.

I opened an empty document and started typing; Mismatched. I guess it’s not really a happy ever after for us. I guess we are mismatched. And in this third book, I guess our story will be over.

I started typing my thoughts starting that day of our wedding. Siguro for most of the people, marriage is the start of the happy ending, but in my case, it is the end of everything. Simula sa araw na iyon, nagbago na ang lahat.

I shifted my gaze on my phone. Si Ella tumatawag. Up to now, she doesn’t know my problem. Ayoko siyang i-stress, especially now that she’s busy with her wedding. Yes wedding. Just a few months ago, Von asked her to marry him and she said yes.

“Hey.” I said as soon as I picked up my phone.

“Anong hey hey ka jan?! Ang tagal mong sinagot yung tawag ko!” reklamo niya.

I chuckled with her silliness. “Anong kailangan mo?”

“Anong kailangan ko? Hoy Grace! May kailangan kang sabihin sa akin!” she said authoritatively.

I heaved out a sigh. Feeling ko alam na niya.

“Si mama ba ang nagsabi sa’yo?” I asked.

“No.” she snapped. “Well, more like.. ughh something like that. Sila actually ni mom. Tapos kinwento ni mom sa akin.”

I sighed once again. “Oh well, yung mga nanay natin, chismosa talaga.”

“Grace.” She said in her serious tone. “I know why you are not telling me this… But para saan pa ban a best friend mo ako? You can tell me all your problems.”

“Enough na yung problema mo sa fiancé mo.” I joked.

“Grace I’m serious.” She said.

“Ell, don’t worry about me okay?” I said. “And besides, Kiefer and I are okay.”

A big lie. Hindi kami okay. Alam ko yun, kahit na pilit niyang pinapakita na okay kami. But at the end of the day, issue pa rin yun sa amin.

I heard her sigh from the other line. “Okay fine. Basta Grace ah, if you have any problem, just give me a call okay? I’m always here for you. Kahit gaga ka minsan.”