my diary

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It's the 12th December at 9:46 pm.

My day was ok. I spent the day at home and learned Maths. I still understand everything I do which kinda hurts me because I know that I'm gonna forget everything during the exam. My mother was tired today so we didn't drive to Odessa.

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I cutted myself again. The cuts got deep so they hurt very much right now but I don't give a fuck. I don't want to go to school tomorrow but I have to. I think about asking my parents if I could stay at home but I know that they wouldn't allow it. My suicidal thoughts are also getting bad again and I'm scared. But I still don't want to ask my parents to call an ambulance because I need to do the Maths exam and getting professional help never helped me. I'm stuck.
And I'm scared that I'm not going to be able to handle that. I'm scared that I'm gonna kill myself one day. I want to fight but I can't. I'm to exhausted.

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That's it for today.

See you next time. Byeee:)