my diary

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It's the 30th December at 10:21 pm.

My day was ok. I spent the whole day at home, listened to some true crime podcasts and was on Instagram. My parents decided to order pizza today.
I found that fact ok. I'm often scared that one day I'm going to stop eating or start throwing up after I ate something because I often feel like. I often feel guilty after I have eaten something so I have to force myself to eat something sometimes because an eating disorder is definitely something I don't want in my life.

Anyway, I was able to enjoy the food and I didn't feel guilty afterwards. My parents and me watched a movie in the meanwhile and it was a good atmosphere. I don't experience that often when I'm with them.

That's it for today.

See you next time. Byeee:)