listen, I haven't used this book in such a long while. but fuck. there's so much going on I can't hold it all into my physical journal.
I didn't eat much today. if anything I didn't / want / to eat at all today. everything has been going so downhill for me lately that I don't know what to do. it all sucks. it really does.
I'll probably be going into a new home as early as tomorrow and honestly, I'm sick, so sick of everything. it absolutely sucks and I want to just go back with my bio mom. I get to have a therapy session with her tuesday and I'm nervous but I think it's the right call. she's doing better and not on fucking drugs anymore. I guess I'm just scared?
the foster parents im with right now aren't much help anymore. sure they're doing more than what my bio mom did with our check ups and everything, but I want to actually fall down a flight of stairs and not come back up. just lay there.
I just..
I just want to go home.
