❝ 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐄 . ❞

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starting off sad, yeah. sorry. I'm just a mess.

but I'm just upset with more myself, frankly. I hate how much I over think. it just, I hate it.

I have a really good friend and I'm so scared that we're drifting away.

it scares me so much, that I say random bullshit just to make sure they know I'm still here.

our,, our friendship is slipping.

I don't want that. I don't want to lose them. I really don't.

they were there when no one else was and I just..

I feel like I'm not putting enough effort into it. I feel like it's my fault.

I could just be jealous. that might be the problem.

I'm just terrified. what if someday, they just stop talking to me all together?

what if I wasn't the bestest friend they thought?

god — I hate myself.

I'll shut up now.