☆ ⨾ letters to toman

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Dear Kazutora,

Do you ever wish you could take back every action you did in the past? Do something a little different, say something different, think differently. Kazutora I do wonder sometimes what it would have been like if I had actually acknowledged Kisaki before things got bad. Maybe if I hadn't been so ignorant and stupid, so many things could have been different now.

I'm not sure when this letter will reach you. Maybe there's a chance something's happened to me before I could get the chance to give this to you personally. But that doesn't matter, so long as you receive it right?

I don't have much to say to you. I hardly know you. You only ever came to me when Valhalla was still a former gang. But in the future you turn into someone so much more different than you are now. You're still rather.... blunt and rude-- mainly towards me-- but I could tell you thought things through after getting out of jail.

It's astonishing how events of such great caliber can create the biggest changes in a person. A true phenomena. And I think about it a lot because when I saw you in the future, you no longer thought about yourself. You weren't as shut off and I guess I owe that to Chifuyu who still gave you a chance despite everything that happened.

And I owe you my life, even if you never meant to save it in the first place. Because in the future where Kisaki somehow still has an edge over Toman, when I had reached my goal of being at the top, he still was one step ahead. And somehow you knew things were going to go down. But you were too late to save Chifuyu.

I know you had no intention of saving me at that time, but I want to thank you for it regardless. If it weren't for you I really would have been dead. I wouldn't be given the chance to go back again to be able to save Chifuyu.

Sometime in the future, Chifuyu becomes an important part of your life and he's my best friend. I want to save him as much as you did in that future. I can't afford to have anyone else-- who I was capable of saving-- die. There's been too much of that already, and he's the one person I plan to save in every timeline.

Kazutora I don't think you know how important you'll become in the near future. How you fit in so well with the rest of Toman in the future, like nothing happened. Things were done and we can't go back on that, and believe me, if I could go back to save Baji... I would have done it already. I would have kept trying until he came back alive.

I know this must all seem strange coming from pretty much a stranger. You've only ever seen me when we went against Valhalla, and even a bit before. But we don't really know each other. So it's probably confusing and crazy to read all of this.

I just need you to believe in everything I'm saying. I have no reason to lie and I'm pretty sure you know this by this point in the letter. I deemed you important enough to know everything, and truthfully, I think you need to know.

Put your faith in me,
Hanagaki Takemichi