well....this isn't really a story but just my feelings and my thoughts and the things that flows through my head on a daily basis. Things that I can't explain to people. Also I feel like they won't understand so......yeah......
This book is about fe...
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15 December 2021,Wednesday 12:13 am
I had almost had a panic attack today. Wasn’t fun.
I had a pill last Night so i don't know what i dreamt of. I don't know if he came.
What i do know is that i need a cigarette really fucking bad.
I've been feeling jittery all fucking day and i hate it. It's times like this when i wish i was a boy,
Maybe then i would be able to walk in the middle of the night without having to look behind my back every 10 seconds.
I feel this suffocating agony everytime someone looks at me the wrong way. i guess thats why i don't wanna get out of my house even when i have the chance.
Maybe that's why my subconscious created this nameless man who invades my mind almost everynight warms me up in his arms,
Calms me down with his sweet words and velvet voice,
And then leaves me alone with nothing but a void.
Who knows
Maybe god thinks i'm too bad to deserve such happiness.
Maybe the devil is taking control of my mind to find sadistic comfort in my pain.
