emotions

old one

May 14, 2021 Friday

I hate those little notes you write.

I hate how you say 'i love you' every time we pass by each other.

I hate when you tell me a song reminds you of me.

I hate when you get concerned by every little thing i do, you act as if i am a porcelain doll that will break Everytime you touch it.

I hate everything about you and i think thats why i love you.

But you Only live in my imagination.

Why would my mind create something i hate so much and make me want to love it?

i want to love you when you let me cry on Your chest and whisper softly in my ears.

I want to love you. But i can't seem to utter those 3 words.

A red string binds our hearts together but mine beats too fast, too wild for the string to stay tied.

The knots get lose and our hearts fall apart.

I think fate wants me to feel pain of sad love stories because i love them so much,

Or is it my mind that finally wants me to die of a broken heart?

I may never find out.

But i want to tell you that, even tho i dont know your name or your face, i do know your touch.

And i do love it unconditionally and in a way i am happy you exist only in my mind.

Because i know i Won't have to share you with anyone.

You'll be mine forever and always,

and my heart Will always split in half while trying to decide whether or not i should Love you.

After all You're every thing i hate..