Lost

My Mikey

"Raphie, wake up!" I feel Mikey shaking my shoulder. "Your alarm went off ten minutes ago, we're gonna be late for training," Mikey groans.
"Just let me sleep!" I grunt and I squeeze Mikey's stomach.
"Please, I don't want to be in more trouble with Splinter and I want some breakfast."
"Fine," I groan.
"Raph," Mikey says after a few seconds. "Get up, you're laying on me, you know." He kisses the top of my head and I smile.
"Fine, fine, I'm getting up." I yawn and then I get up on my knees.
Mikey crawl out of bed and then he stretches.
"I gotta go get dressed, see you later." He grabs all of his pads.
"Wait, come here," I swing my legs over the side of the bed and I stand up.
"What?"
I gently put my hand on the back of Mikey's head and I pull him in. I can see him smile right before I close my eyes.
I kiss his his lips and he kisses my back right away. He puts his arms around my shoulders and I put my free hand on his hip.
"Raph," he whispers quietly.
"Hm?" I hum and then I bring him back into the kiss.
He kisses me for a few more seconds before he pulls away.
"Seriously, get ready." He gives me a quick peck on my cheek and then he leaves me bedroom.
I think he and I should be exempt from training today, I'm still fucking tired.
I grab my mask of my nightstand and I tie it on. I straighten it a little bit and then there's a knock on my door.
I open it to see Donnie holding a cup of steaming hot coffee.
"Mornin, Don," I say and I open my door all the way. "What's up?"
"I noticed you and Mikey are running a bit late, I made you a cup of coffee." He walks into my room and he sets the cup on my table.
"You're the best." I open my top drawer and I get some clean wrapping.
"Don't be late for training," Donnie says before he leaves my room. He shuts to door behind him and I sit on the edge of my bed.
I wonder if Splinter'll let me sit this one out, my shell still fuckin hurts and I'm down a sai. But knowing him he won't.
I wrap up my ankles and my hands and then I put my elbow pads and knee pads on.
I can hear my bed just screaming my name.
I stick my finger in the coffee to check the temp, burning hot just like I like it.
I gulp down my coffee and then I take the cup and I leave my room.
I walk over to the bathroom and I knock on the door a couple times.
"One minute!"
Oh shit, that's Leo.
I can feel my blood start to boil and my heart speeding up.
If I wasn't holding this coffee cup, my hands would be trembling too.
I don't know if I can see Leo without punching him in the face and knocking a few teeth lose.
The bathroom door swings open. "Hey, Raph~"
"Don't," I push past him and I walk into to bathroom.
"See you in training, Raphie~" I slam the door in his face. I set the cup on the floor next to the door and I lean over the sink.
What the fuck is going on with Leo?
I pull my mask down around my neck and I splash some cold water in my face.
Fucking damnit Leo.
I use a towel and I dry my face then I put my mask back on.
I'll beat his ass in training, that'll show him.
I brush my teeth quickly then I walk out of the bathroom.
First I walk to the kitchen, and of course it's empty. That means everyone is waiting in the dojo.
Shit.
I set my cup next to the sink and I run to the dojo.
"Raphael. You're late," Sensei says and I kneel next to Donnie, across from Leo.
"Sorry, Sensei," Sensei nods and then he kneels between Mikey and Donnie.
"We are going to start with meditation, strengthen our souls and our spirits." Sensei sits with his legs folded and he puts his elbows on his legs. He touches his index finger to his thumb and lets the rest of his fingers relax.
Everyone copies Sensei. "Deep breath in..."
I take a deep breath.
"Deep breath out."
I slowly let my breath out and I take another deep breath.
"Clear your minds."
How the hell am I supposed to clear my mind? Everything Leo did lastnight is haunting me. I was able to forget about it while when I was with Mikey but now my skin is crawling.
I can feel his hands on my skin, and I can hear his voice like a fucking speaker in the back of my head. "You know you want me," that's playing in repeat in the back of my head.
I can feel my blood boiling again, I'm in the verge of losing my shit.
Being in the same room as Leo right now is driving me insane. I can just feel his aura and the tension between us.
My breathing starts to quicken and my hands are trembling. If I don't punch something soon I'm going to burst.
Fuck you, Leo. He's fucking up my mind.
"Raph?" Donnie snaps me out of my thoughts and he shakes my shoulder.
I open my eyes quickly to see everyone else standing.
"Huh?" I quickly get on my feet.
Leo is smirking at me and he glances toward Mikey. I look quickly to Mikey and he looks really worried.
"Are you alright, Raphael?" Splinter asks.
"You zoned out for a while," Leo says, still smirking at me with a devilish shimmer in his eyes.
"I'm fine," I hiss at Leo.
"Are you sure?" Donnie asks and I brush his hand off of my shoulder. "You zoned out pretty bad-"
"I said I'm fine!"
"Raphael, a word." Splinter looks at me and then he walks out of the dojo. I glare at Leo and then I follow Splinter.
He leads me in the the kitchen and I lean against the counter with my arms folded on my chest.
"What is bothering you, my son?"
"Nothing, Sensei."
"It is quite clear that you have something on your mind."
"No! I'm fine, okay!?" I didn't mean to yell at him, but all this shit is just making me angrier. I just need to hit something already.
"I fear something is upsetting you and getting the best of you."
"Sensei, please. I just need to train and clear my mind. Meditation- I just need some action."
"Control your anger before it controls you." Splinter turns his back to me and starts walking back to the dojo.
I roll my eyes and I follow him.
We walk back into the dojo and I go stand next to Donnie. Splinter walks into his room and then he walks out with a sai.
"Michelangelo told me that you had lost one."
"Thanks," I take the sai and flip it into my belt.
"You will be practicing one on one hand combat, no weapons. Focus on strengthening your strategy. Begin."
Of course I'm against Leo, but I'm fine with that. I've been eager to beat him out of his shell since last night.
Leo kicks one of his legs back and he puts his fists up.
Come at me Leo, I fucking dare you. I plant my back heel into the ground and I put up my fists.
Leo lunges at me and it look like he's going to swing a right hook at me so I block my face, but at the last minute he kicks my leg out from under me.
I fall flat on my back.
"Damnit!" That fucking hurt my back.
"Careful with his bruised shell, Leo!" Donnie yells out as he dodges and attack from Mikey.
I jump onto my feet and Leo grabs me by the shell and pulls me close to him. "Sorry, I could resist. I just love seeing you on your back." I freeze and Leo takes that opportunity to knee me in the gut and stumble backwards. I hunch over and I grab my stomach.
"Bastard!" I lunge at Leo and and I tackle him to the ground. I go for a right hook but he blocks me and throws me off of him.
I roll onto my arms to avoid hitting my shell again.
Leo and I both get onto our feet and Leo jumps at me. He goes for a round house kick but I grab his leg while he's in mid air and I slam him int the ground.
He grunts and he flips into his feet. He sings a punch at me and hits me in the side of the head. Then he throws a high kick at me but I'm able to block it.
I throw a punch at him and I hit him under his eye.
He grunts out again and throws another kick at me but I block it and feed him a kick to the hip instead.
He nearly collapses but right when I thought I had a moment to catch my breath he tackles me to the ground.
He uses his leg to pin my legs to the ground and his other knee is pressing into my shoulder. His hand is holding down my wrist and his other hand is on my throat.
"You must like being pinned down, kinky." He smirks and he squeeze my throat.
That look in his eyes- that's a look I'll never unsee. It's a look of insanity, determination, and lust.
Just then Mikey crashes into us and knocks Leo off of me. Mikey sprawls out over my legs.
"Ugh!" He groans.
"You missed me!" I hear Donnie say a little too proudly.
"Enough," Splinter says and he hits his staff on the ground.
"Sorry guys," Mikey says and he gets off of me. He reaches his hand out to me, I'm still laying on my shell, even though my back is throbbing.
I smile at Mikey and I take his hand. He pulls me to my feet.
"Leonard, Raphael, I need a word with you. Donatello and Michelangelo, you guys are excused.
Mikey let's go of my hand and him and Donnie walk out of the dojo.
"What is going on between you two?" Splinter says as he looks between me and Leo.
"Nothing, Sensei." Leo says. Splinter looks at me, I can't bare to look at Leo.
"Nothing," I mumble under my breath.
I can't just tell Splinter that Leo is acting insane and trying to force me to be with him. How would I even explain that to him?
"Don't lie to me." Neither Leo or I say anything. Spinter sighs and he bows his head. "Very well, whatever is going on with you two, I suggest you sort it out. You're dismissed."
Splinter walks to his room and I walk out of the dojo as fast as I can.
I see Donnie sitting in the couch on his computer, but I don't see Mikey.
"Sounds like Mikey's in the kitchen," Leo says as he walks next to me. "I should go spend some time with him-"
"Stay the fuck away from him, Leo," I hiss and I shove Leo backwards. He was standing way too close to me. There's no way I'm letting him get into Mikey's head too.
I storm off to the kitchen to find Mikey looking in the cupboards.
"Hey Raph," he says as I pull out a chair.
I sit back in the chair and I fold my arms over my chest.
Leo walks in the kitchen and he sits across from me.
"Hey Mikey," he says all innocently.
"Want some chips?" Mikey asks and he opens a bag of chips.
"Sure," Leo says and Mikey sits next to him. Leo smirks at me and he slides his chair closer the Mikey to get a chip.
I clench my fists and I glare at him.
"So what happened to you guys while you were out there?"
"It was cold," Mikey between chips. "We had to swim across a river and then hide in the woods- Raph made a fire though."
"Yeah?"
"Mhm," Leo throws him arm over Mikey and I feel myself tense up.
"You know, I was really worried about you guys."
He better get his fucking arm off of my Mikey while he still has two of them.