Call It What You Want [A Poetry Collection]

what you cant have

i cant say yes
you know why?
because I've played this fucking game before.

i say yes
and i'm finally yours
and once you realize it
once it sets in
and the dust settles
you stop trying
because you don't need to fight
for my attention
not any more
at least thats what you think
and eventually
you stop caring
because everything that made it fun
before
none of it happens anymore
and soon
we grow apart
because all the anticipation
and the nervous stares
and eager comments
and electric contact
between our skin
it was all for nothing.

and finally
we're strangers again
like nothing ever happened
and everything between us
only lives in our vague memories.

so no
you can't have me.
because you only want
what you can't have.
and i can't give in
because i can't put myself
through being slowly forgotten
again.