Forever...?

Chapter 16

(In Your Eyes By Peter Gabriel)

Sapnap's Pov

I was sitting down at my desk with Wilbur on the phone, and Skylar and Ranboo in my room.

I had told them what happened, I didn't want to tell George and Dream because they were going on a date and i didnt want them to worry about me so I kept quiet.

My thoughts were running around my head, and I realized everything that I did wrong tonight, and I had no idea how to fix it.

I wanted to fix it, but I didn't know how, which brought me to my current issue.

"Sap, Man-" Wilbur started but I cut him off.

"She's the ice to my fire. The colder she gets the more fired up I get. She keeps me honest to myself and everything. She keeps the fire alive. And now I feel like the fire is going out."

I felt like time was going so slow without her. And it wasn't the good slow.

It was the bad slow, the slow that made you wish that life was going fast, or that you weren't even living.

My leg was bouncing, I couldn't sit still. I'm such a fucking idiot.

"Nick, it's fine. She'll come around." Ranboo tried to ease my head out, so we could all talk because I didn't want to talk.

Well i wanted to talk, but i want to talk to her. That's all I have ever wanted since I've met her. I get so lost sometimes.

"Listen to me Sap. It's not going to be easy, but it won't be hard. She didn't push you away completely, she just needs time to think to herself. So what I think you should do is take the time she needs, and use it for yourself. Use it as a learning experience on what to not do, what to make sure you're not doing." Wilbur said as I zoned back into reality.

She was normally my escape from reality, but now I had to live in reality.

"She has every right to feel like that. She handled it perfectly, but so did you. Now, you saying that her mood was bitchy, you shouldn't have done that. If Ranboo ever did that to me I think i would slap him. No offense, Beloved.But that was rude, but beside that i think you did good." Skylar spoke with a smile before getting up and walking over to me.

She pulled my arms making me stand up, and once I stood up, she hugged me.

Having my mother so far away was difficult for me, but Skylars embrace felt just like my moms right now.

That made me cry, it made me cry the way that she told me that everything was going to be okay. I felt like complete and utter shit and somehow this girl always made me feel better.

She may be so much younger than me, but I look up to her so much. She's my best friend, my role model, my niece, and she acts like my mother sometimes.

"It will be okay, everything will work out the way it's supposed to." Wilburs words were so stupid yet so damn pwerful at the same time.

They held such a strong meaning, he knew what he was talking about, and he knew it well. And I wanted to know why he knew how to handle these situations.

I would normally be on the phone with her right now, she would be asleep, and i would be falling asleep. We would've had random conversations like normal, and we would've been ourselves. But I messed everything up.

"I said I love you to her." I said after Skylar pulled away and sat back down next to Ranboo.

"You did what?!" She shrieked standing up again.

"I don't know if she heard me, but I said it as she closed the door to her apartment, and I swear to god, I meant every word. Those three words, I meant them. I'm in love with Harley Willows and I'm not ashamed or scared to say it outloud anymore. I'm in love with her, and as long as I live, I will always, in some way shape or form, love her. She is the forever to my always That's why our thing is forever and always. Because we are forever and always."

"Okay, Okay. I mean this in the nicest way possible, you don't know if she heard you tell her that you fucking love her?!" Skylar screamed, jumping up and down.

"No, No I don't. As soon as she closed the door, i said it, and then i stood there for a minute before leaving-"

"What the hell are you still doing here then?!" Skylar screamed at me as I looked at her with a confused expression.

"I'm sorry, come again?" I spoke out, trying to understand why now all of the sudden she wants me to leave.

"You love her! But you didn't say it to her face-"

"Skylar did you hit your head or something-" I started but then got cut off by Wilbur.

"No, No, She has a point. You didn't tell her, but you told her. Go fucking tell her sap, what the hell!"

"Bro you can't just tell me to do one thing, then change it to the other."

"You should've told us you told her or tried to tell her that you loved her the first second you called us all in here!" Wilbur screamed through the phone, everyone in the room bubbling with happiness except for me.

Was this a good idea? No, probably not. But would I try? Of course.

I grabbed my keys off my desk and put on sneakers, before rushing out of the house.

"YEAH NICK! GO GET HER!!" Skylar screamed as she danced around the room.

I rolled my eyes and laughed as I got into my car and started driving to the apartment that has grown to feel like home to me.

Adrenaline was pumping through my veins and I finally knew how Skylar felt every time she said she wanted to race.

Because going 70 in a 40 zone was fucking crazy. I knew what I wanted, and I knew what I needed to say.

All the words I wish I said, were going to be said.
And I was ready. I was ready to say everything to her, every emotion, every fear, every insecurity, I wanted to say it all.

Once I pulled into my usual spot, I turned off the car and got out. I walked quickly into the building and started walking up the steps.

I felt like everything was going in slow motion as I raced up the steps. Every step was a step closer to the woman I know is the love of my life.

I never have felt like this before, and it felt so right. Everything about her felt so right to me, and I was going to take it and run with it.

I was going to always be there for her, but she needed to know how I felt. I knew how she felt at the moment, but she didn't know how I felt. And I needed to tell her that she means the world to me, and that I am in love with her.

I opened up the door to the door from the stairwell and ran down the hallway to her room.

As I was about to knock on the door she was rushing out.

Bloodshot eyes, hair messy, my shirt, sweatpants, and slides.

She turned around and I grabbed her to stop her from hitting me.

"Nick?" She whispered, like I wasn't actually there.

"Harley- I'm so in love with you, and i know i'm probably the last person you want to hear from right now but i needed to tell you-"

She grabbed my face and smashed her lips onto mine.

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