Forever...?

Chapter 27

(The Middle By Jimmy Eat World)

Sapnap's Pov

Once I got back to the house, I didn't want to go in. I wanted to get back in my car and just drive around, but at the same time I wanted to lay in bed.

I walked in and I could hear Skylar laughing. I rolled my suitcase through the house, and everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at me.

"Sap-"

"I need a minute." I said, and they left me alone.

So I won't snap at them, but I'll snap at Harley? I don't make any sense. I fucking hate that i make no sense. I hate that snapped at her. I hate that I probably- no, i definitely did make her upset.

I let my suitcase fall to the ground when I got inside my room, and I laid on my bed. I didn't feel like moving. I didn't feel like being alone, I wanted to be with her.

She is and was my favorite feeling, and without her I felt lost.

I felt like my world was falling apart, well that's a little over dramatic but I love her. I'll always love her. Even when I was feeling like shit, I knew and I know that I will always love her.

We seemed to be hitting dead ends constantly. I don't know if that is the world telling us to not be together, or if it's telling us to fight harder.

Willows <e
Take your sleeping meds, darling
I love you
Sleep well <e

I put my phone on do not disturb and laid in bed staring at the ceiling. I didn't want to move.

"Why did i fucking do that?" I mumbled.

I was furious with myself.

Ranboo walked into my room first and sat down on my bed next to me. Once he noticed my mood he laid down next to me and didn't say anything for a couple minutes.

"What happened?" He asked, finally breaking the silence.

It was sad that he could tell something was wrong.

"We fought and then we came home. Then I yelled at her after we were calmer. So I ruined all the progress we made from fighting."

"Couples fight, it's normal. Just don't take it too far, you know?"

"Yeah, I just sometimes want to disappear."

"That-"

"No! Not in a bad way. And not forever. I just want to stop and let things calm down again before I come back."

"I feel like you need a break. A lot of stress is on you right now, and I know that. You know that too. Just seeing you act like this, I know it's overwhelming."

"It is, I just feel like, when she's not around I'm missing a piece of myself."

"Just try your best, I personally think you're doing great. And if you even need to talk you know I'm here."

"I just don't think-"

"Sap, man, it will all work out. Love has bumps, it can get difficult, but i know at the end of the day, you'll get through it and i'll be here every step of the way. Because you were there for me. I've never seen you this happy before, none of us have. You are your best self when you're with her."

"I think you're going to make me cry."

"I- I don't mean to- Skylar! I think he's going to cry!!" He screamed, sitting up.