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❝𝐎𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐮𝐩𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐚 𝐟𝐞𝐰 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐠𝐨, 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈 𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭.❞

1st December 2014

SOPA

The library period was probably the best and worst period Chaeyoung could ask for. She loves the smell of books, be it old or new but the school library was her favourite place. Was. At the beginning of the year, the teacher had arranged seating patterns for everyone and very coincidentally Chae and Jeongguk were together.

Well not very coincidentally, they didn't mind being next to each other at the beginning of the year. But now the weird tension between them has destroyed everything. So right now Chaeyoung couldn't decide whether to hate or love that period.

Yes, they were enemies right now, they would make savage remarks to each other through the whole day. Both of them hated each other from their guts, or so they thought.

A small part of both of their minds knew they still had feelings for each other, maybe which will someday turn into love. But love is a big thing compared to high-school life and thus they both were very unsure of it.

A sigh left her lips as she took out the book she had taken last week from her bag and stood in line moving towards the library. Entering the library she saw Chan Mi and the others already sitting in their places and went to her place.

She sat down on the chair behind Yera, her usual place, and waited for Jeon. Jeongguk came laughing along with his friends as he sat down beside her.

Chae lowered her head down to the book and re-read the chapters. Yera giggled at her as she glared at her back and she continued reading.

"Whoa, Jeongguk look at her she is so- "Chae purposely ignored whatever they were going to say and concentrated on the book. She could hear the guys constantly laughing at her and she realised they were probably shaming her.

Some comments couldn't go unheard by her and yes, they were shaming her. She was so angry and sad at the same time. Most of the comments were made by the most shameless boy in their group and that hurt her too.

But Jeongguk was laughing along with that too and that hurt her the most. She hated how the first-ever crush she ever had was dispensing her feel like they were some kind of withered flower.

She hated how Jeongguk was just laughing at whatever they were telling, whether it be lewd or normal, and he was gesturing at them that they were right.

She got angry at the fact that they were doing all this to gaslight her ego and watch her burst just to make further fun of her.

Why do I like him, the question lingered in her mind like a pierced needle on the skin but the hurt was something she was ready to risk.

She was so hopelessly liking him at this point she knew it was all one-sided. He felt nothing for her, he thought of her as some kind of idiotic fool.

Her teenage feelings had grasped her heart as if he taught her some secret language she could speak with no one else, she is a godforsaken mess right now.

A mess made by him, not the beautiful kind but the kind which tries to shine but cannot because it is attracted towards a black hole. He was the black hole. Chaeyoung was not aware of that.

She knew her lifestyle had changed a lot. One day she had heard Jeongguk say that her voice is like a three-year-old but her face is like an eighty-three-year-old.

After that, Chaeyoung changed her eating patterns, her entire lifestyle. She wanted to change, for him and him only. She ate less and her mom became suspicious as to why her food-loving daughter suddenly eat so less always.

She often had a braid done in her hair but changed that and tied only a ponytail as she felt as if it was more attractive. She wanted to be attractive, she felt her former self wasn't enough.

She felt her former self was stupid and not understanding and a complete fool. Her former self was not enough. She was not enough, she was the wrong person.

She needed to be someone Jeongguk wants, and thus she had to change herself for it and make sure she becomes more beautiful, in the terms of Jeongguk.

And nobody noticed how she was trying to change herself, not even Lisa because she was trying to hide that fact from everyone. She did not want people to know her weaknesses and insecurities. What if they take advantage of it?

"Wow Chaeyoung, you are someone, aren't you?" Jeongguk remarked cutting her off her thoughts. "What?" Chae asked wondering why he was suddenly asking that.

"No, I mean we are making constant comments, please react a bit," Jungkook said followed by a sarcastic laugh from all his friends and she inhaled a nice amount of air trying to calm herself before she murders them all.

"You act so fucking hopeless, I mean really, I mean it," Jeongguk continued as she cracked her knuckles ready to beat him down and not care if she gets suspended for it.

Jeongguk probably was not aware at all of hurting her, that he was the one who would scar her for life. Not all high-school incidents are about giving flowers in the locker, some can scar you for life.

He would probably make permanent damage to her heart. His naïve nature, his nature to do whatever makes him look cool, his nature of thinking that everything of his is his and everything of others is his too prevented him from understanding other people's feelings.

But he thought that it was alright, everything was okay and she was not breaking down at all and therefore decided to make one last comment.

"Chaeyoung, please get a life," the boy snickered as Chae gritted her teeth and said, "Regret, that is all you will feel in the future Jeongguk."

Ok, so the description was necessary because I did all that, I ate less, I tried to change myself for hopelessly liking someone. I did and rn I regret it all. Anyways, the drama begins... be ready with popcorn, please.