BDSM With My Boss (REMAKE)

New Beginnings or a Sad Ending

~~ Sarah's P.O.V~~

The past few days have been fun with Jamie although we did hit a couple of rough patches when it came to me talking to James but I figured as much. Jamie has always been very serious when it comes to someone paying full attention to her but honestly that's something I really like about her. I sigh with a small smile as I turn up the car radio, today work was a real pain in the ass but tonight im gonna be able to get my full body treatment from James and I can hardly wait to see what he has in store for me. I glance up at the house as it pears over the hill of the road, excitement begins to flow rapidly "god I can't wait to be alone with him." I bite my lip feeling my juices begin to seep out of me and onto my panties. Once I finally pull up to his house I turn off the car and sit for a moment to look at myself in the mirror, I quickly fix up my makeup before heading inside the huge wooden double doors. 

As I walk inside I hear the faint sound of voices coming from his in home office , I shrug my shoulders before taking everything up to the bedroom. I guess James has an at home meeting today... but I didn't schedule this one so it must be someone from the club.. no he wouldn't bring her here.. I feel my suspicion get the best of me and before I know it I'm halfway down the stairs as quiet as possible; I manage to get to the bottom of the stairs without hitting a single squeaky floor board. I lean foward listening closely to the voices, I can hear James but the other sounds like... Justin? What the hell is Justin doing here? "You know as well as I do, you can't hide this forever." Justin sounds cocky as always but hide what? What's James hiding? "You think I don't know that? You think I haven't thought about telling her?!." James shouts angrily with a loud slam following from what I assume was his hands hitting his desk. "You honestly don't think she'll put two and two together?" Justin chuckles; put what together? What the hell are they talking about?! Someone fucking say something!! "You know I'm glad you were adopted brother.. it really suited you."

My face scrunches at Justin's words as my mind begins to slowly process the information. "Brother?... adopted?" I whisper to myself "you know I'm glad I was adopted too, I grew up with a family who gave a shit about me and you could've too but instead you refused and stayed in that shit show of a system until you turned 18 and then poof it was like you never even existed."James spats at Justin, I lightly gasp but quickly cover my mouth, silence flows through the air for a moment; I take this moment to sneak my way back upstairs but before I could reach the top a familiar voice rang into my ears "kitten."  I turn to face him but I can't "come on princess, look at me." I turn to face James and to my surprise he doesn't seem angry at me for ease dropping. "Say something baby." I shrug "what don't I know about you James? What haven't you told me?" He sighs running his fingers through his dark hair "there are things about me that Noone knows. I'm a private person and you know that."

I feel my anger being to boil inside me "so you've been hiding things from me?" He shakes his head "come down here and we can talk about all of this." I shake my head as tears fill my eyes "I think I just need a moment to process everything." His face falls and for a moment I see fear fill his eyes "okay." His eyes quickly darken before he walks off leaving me alone with my thoughts. "Hey" I hear a soft voice from behind me startling me " its just me Sarah, I came up the back stairway." I lightly groan as I throw myself into his arms, I wrap my arms around Justin as tears begin to fall down my face "Justin why didn't you tell me?" he lightly pets my head as his other arms wraps securely around me "sometimes history just isn't yours to tell." I sigh as I wipe my tears away; I bring myself to look up at him after a moment of silence "but it has something to do with you too, I dont understand why James didn't tell me." Justin sighs deeply before pulling away from me "Sarah, you have to understand that this is something no-one else knows. You went to 5th grade with James and all the way through college with him so if he didn't tell you then he must have a damn good reason."

Justin's groans "I just think my brother should at least be able to tell his side of the story, you're standing here letting me tell you mine so why won't you let him tell his?" I stop for a moment as the realization hits me.. I didn't even give him a chance to tell me why he never told me or Jamie. Why did he hide this for so long and why is it such a huge deal? I have so many questions but Justin isn't the person I should be asking. I give Justin one last hug before walking off " thanks." I lightly call out before disappearing out of his view. I look around for James but he's nowhere to be found, I hear noise coming from the garage so I follow listening closely as I get closer. "Fuck!" I hear James yell in pain, I run into the garage barging through the door; I look over at James who has a bloody hand. "James!" I run over to him and quickly grab the emergency kit from his work bench. 

"So you can take care of me but won't talk to me?" he snaps at me but I ignore him making sure to keep my focus on the task at hand "Dont leave me." I feel a sharp pain in my chest as the words lightly roll out of his mouth; I look up at him as tears begin to slide down my cheeks "you think I would leave you over this?" My eyebrows scrunch in confusion " James.. im not going anywhere." I turn my attention back to his hand and quickly wrap his hand making sure to put enough pressure to stop the bleeding. "how did this happen?" he leans back against his work bench making his shirt slightly slide up showing off his toned abdomen "I went to grab something from the bench and cut myself on something e-" I cut him off "that's not what I meant." he slowly nods " I know. I hid this because things before you met me were not all sunshines and butterflies, I dont care about my past and I dont want to remember it. I cut ties with everyone that had to do with my past and I started over with a new family and a new life."

I nod not taking my gaze off of him "Sarah I love you so much but I dont want to share you and I want you to move in with me.. I want things to be real baby and Im not trying to push anything on you because I know you're figuring things out but in the end I know you'll choose me." I lightly smile at him " I see what you mean now about me choosing you in the end." I take a moment before I say anything to process the information given to me.. I begin to think about all the fun things I've done with Jamie before we were an "us" I mean we could always go back to how things were but do I really want that? could I really choose him over her? "it's been a few months kitten and we still haven't even announced anything at the club." I blink a few times as I come out of my thoughts "im sorry did you say it's been months?" he slowly nods "yeah why?" I bite my lip as anxiety fills me "I know we're having a serious talk but I need to use the restroom and once im finished we can finish this conversation okay?" 

Confusion is etched onto his face but he doesn't say anything besides "yeah sounds good." I run up to the restroom taking a quick stop at my bags before going in.. I run into the restroom and quickly open the test, my shaky fingers betray me making it harder to open the test; I quickly rip it open with my teeth and take it, once I finish taking the test I cap it and set it down on the counter next to me so I can clean myself up. Once I finish and wash off my hands I stand for a moment staring at myself in the mirror "you got this, everything will be fine.. these things are always negative for me so-" I stop mid sentence as I glance down at the positive pregnancy test.. "Baby are you alright?" I don't have any words, I walk up to the bathroom door and swing it open revealing a confused and worried James "What's going on?" I shockingly hold up the test into his view showing him the positive results.. "Oh my god."  Justin pipes from behind him shocking us both, silence fills the room as we all stare at one another... "what do we do now?" I ask no-one in particular as I stare down at the test in my hands.

A/N: so I hope you guys have all enjoyed this book! I know I've really enjoyed writing it and who knows maybe I'll do a sequel or maybe just an alternate ending one day but for now this is it 🖤 thank you to everyone who's read the original and came here to reread a different version and thank you to everyone who is a new reader and just enjoyed the whole thing!! Happy Holiday's everyone and I can't wait to see you all again in the new year! 😏