The forgotten kid. (On hold)

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Back to the present, at Knot's dorm:

Krist cries his heart out on remembering the worst time of his life while Knot embraces him tightly in his arms. Knot is raging and fuming in anger on hearing about everything. 

He knew how his friend felt for P'Beam. They had long talks over the issue too. He remembers how he had consoled Krist during the breakup or other times when he felt sad. 

Knot curses out loud how can all of them be so fucking dumb. He curses P'Forth who always talked about loyalty, brotherhood, etc during their sotus, and questions his doings. 

If only Krist let Knot go now instead of hugging him tight, he would have killed that bastard P'Sing who calls himself a boyfriend while behaving this way. 

Unable to control his anger, Knot lashes out at Krist for being such a lovesick fool and tolerating all this for long. Krist just held his head low and continues crying. 

Knot is pacing back and forth trying to compose himself while Krist feels done with everything. Even he doesn't have enough tears left to ease his bleeding heart. 

Knot again hugs him and calms him saying that none of them is worth crying for. He helps Krist calm down while he himself take a few deep breaths.

After a while, Krist says that he can't stay long with him as it won't take them long to find him. Also, that he is done with this place and can't stand the sight of it anymore.

Knot shuts him saying that no one will hurt him further, if needed, he will call his parents to deal with his family. He will do anything in his power to keep Krist out of that toxic place. 

He shushes Krist down before the latter could protest while Krist stays quiet knowing that his friend won't let him go and there is no point in arguing.

They didn't notice that they spent the whole afternoon and evening in this. Knot says he will order food and ask Krist to freshen up. They eat their early dinner silently later. 

Krist pleads Knot to not tell anything to anyone. He asks him to stay away from all this and never talk about it ever again. This is the last promise he asks for.

Knot just nods dejectedly as he can't go against his friend and break his trust like others. They both silently go to bed and try hard to forget everything. 

At midnight, Krist wakes up and check Knot to make sure the latter is fully asleep. He gets off the bed slowly and grabs 1 of Knot's notebook and start writing. 

After that, he makes 1 call to his secret friend Natsu and begs her to pick him up from Rama bridge in 2 hours without telling anyone. While the latter just rushes to the said place.

Once confirmed, he cuts the call and leaves his written message near Knot's bedside. He also leaves everything behind that somehow connected him to the people who killed his soul.

He removes the ring given by P'Sing that was selected by P'Beam, gear earned from sotus that was given by his phi, phone gifted by his dad, and a chain given by his mae years ago. 

He sighs and give one last glance to these things. After a guilty look to Knot, Krist leaves his room silently and makes his way towards Rama bridge without getting caught by anyone. 

Thanks to the night's darkness, it's easy for him to escape. He reaches there and notices a small figure standing near the edge. Going a little close, he notices Natsu looking here and there. 

Krist dash towards her and hug her tight. Natsu gets shocked seeing Krist's state and tighten her hug while calming him. She never thought of meeting him in this shitty state. 

She feels confused seeing Krist's pleading to take him away. She couldn't take it anymore especially after seeing Krist begging and pulled him to her car. 

She drove away while Krist took 1 last look towards the city that was once his home and cries silently. Natsu, on the other hand, has a turmoil of emotions seeing his state.

They reach Natsu's place in a few hours while Krist close his eyes slowly as he gets farther and farther from the cursed place. The next morning, Knot wakes up to an empty dorm room. 

He looks for Krist and ends up finding his note and stuff near the table. He reads the note and ends up dropping on the floor while crying hard.

"I am sorry Knot, I really am. I know what I am doing might be stupid but for now all I wanted is this. I don't want to confront them or see them anymore. It's not worth it. Every single emotion or feeling towards those people died with previous Krist who cried in your embrace while remembering that hell for the last time. This Krist is no longer the same as before and could never be. I admit that the suicidal attempt yesterday was a weak moment for me, but I promise not to repeat it ever. So, please don't worry. At least, have this much faith in me. I am hurt and broken beyond repair, but not a coward to kill myself, not anymore. I will do what I have done always. I will be mature, fight my problems, and pave my way on my own. I can't stay with you, not because you are weak, or because you can't protect me, or I feel unsafe, but because this is my fight with my own life, which I have to win on my own. I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong, it may even sound selfish, but I have to go far away from here to start my own life without any strings attached from the past, to turn from Krist Jaturapoom to Krist. I know life is not going to be easy at all and I might not be able to make it too, the chance of failure is way too high, but I am ready, this time, I am. Please keep my little secret safe to yourself as this is the last promise I ask for. Never look for me or try to reach me. Please never get involved with P'Forth or P'Sing too in your anger. Please, do it for me and don't get troubled because of me. I want you to complete your degree and live your dream just like you use to tell me. Just live your life and be happy with Tew and let me live mine with a new beginning. One day, when I am ready enough, I will return to meet you, maybe with a better version of myself. Neither do I promise nor do I give you any hope, but still I assure you wherever I will be, whatever I would do, however, I would live, this time everything I do would be for my happiness only and not to prove or get anything from anyone. I hope you will understand this stupid friend of yours and will fulfill my wish. I am sorry for leaving you Knot, but trust me I need to find myself again."