The forgotten kid. (On hold)

Painful past- Family and P'Beam

Krist narrates his story to Knot (Part 1):

You know everything about me and my family from the beginning. Daddy has always been busy with his work and travels a lot but always takes time to talk to me and phi while on break. 

P'Forth, on the other hand, has always been coldhearted and lived a carefree life with his wolf gang (ParkLam and MaxTul). He is always busy partying with his pack since high school. 

Even during his semester break, his whole gang would plan some trips to the mountains. Only my mom was around me the most making me feel loved to forget other's absences. 

Still, I loved them all the same and always tried to do my best for them. Even when daddy and P'Forth were busy with their own life, I tried to be as understanding as possible.

Sometimes, I tried to get their attention by talking, irritating, ranting, or even crying, trying everything to get those 2 men to out of their small bubbles and see others around them.

Not that they ever hated me or anything, they always looked out for me too but never expressed it . Like how you want someone to show their love and care to you sometimes, even if rarely.

Things were going this way until I reach college and that too in the same department as P'Forth 1 year back. I was happy that I would be phi's department and could possibly grow close to him.

Remember when we went to uni (talking to Knot), I expected P'Forth to show up and help us tour the uni or at least his engineering department on our 1st day. (Knot nods)

First, I was excited that I will finally be around phi and understand what was so special about his group that he was so invested in them and maybe I will also form a group like them. 

But, I was a little disappointed when he didn't show up. Remember, how we wasted the whole afternoon waiting for those imbeciles in the canteen and then got late for SOTUS too. 

(Knot chokes on his drink at that cold tone of Krist)

There, in the hall, P'Forth was standing with anger on his face when he saw running and entering the hall all sweating. Without even listening to me, he just barked to do 30 laps in the ground. 

I was so mad that I wanted to fight him head on that day for the 1st time in my life. Can you imagine that keeping the image of a leader was more important to him than his own nong?

And there the stupid me was thinking that no one would trouble or try to bully us knowing P'forth was my brother. In real, my great brother punished me without even hearing me out.

Fumingly, I blasted to his dorm later and confronted him for his greatness in complete rage. Like hell I would care about his friends who were playing games there.

He said "Don't expect any special treatment or advantages just because you are my brother. Yes, I will to guide and protect you as always, but I won't let you do anything stupid in my name. 

I don't want you to be dependent on anyone or rely on me for anything, but pave your own way. I will treat you as any other junior in the uni so that no one can feel discriminated.

You are and will always be my little brother everywhere. I will treat you as your phi should do except in the uni where I will treat you as the rest of my juniors, so don't sulk about it". 

Like fucking hell! I was so done after hearing his bullcrap that I didn't even bother to reason with him and just left the room in complete disappointment. Like why did I even expect anything?

Soon, we got busy in the moon and star competition where he met P'Beam. P'Forth being P'Pha's friend knew about the crazy doc gang but only met P'Pha before out of the 3. 

When P'Pha introduced his other 2 friends during the competition, P'Beam caught my P's attention. Remember how big of a wave it was in the whole uni about them. (Knot nods)

Yeah! It was hell of a shocking news for me too to know that my phi is capable of loving someone. I think it was like love at first sight, but both of them were 2 opposite poles.

P'Forth was a wild alpha bi-beast while P'Beam was a shy pampered angelic kid. It was so shocking when both of them announced their relation officially at the end of competition.

For the first time in my life, I saw P'Forth having a soft side when he was behaving all possessive and caring like an ideal boyfriend much to everyone's shock in the uni.

The P' who taught me and others the shit like being strong, independent, confident, and mature to handle the real-life outside uni, was handling P'Beam as the most fragile thing on earth.

The whole uni witnessed him giving his gear to P'Beam at our gear ceremony with a big confession. I felt for a while that my phi was possessed by someone seeing how he acted.

Still, I was genuinely happy for my phi to find his love and felt a little jealous of the treatment P'Beam got but shrugged it as it wasn't very nice of me to sulk over my phi's happiness. 

Soon, phi also introduced me to him personally as his nong (finally) and I remember seeing P'Beam's shocked face. Like who wouldn't be as I was just a junior like anyone else. Remember.

However, I always admired P'Beam when he talked to me while coming to our department. He also liked me a lot for accepting him. We used to have small talks when he would wait for phi.

Then, my dear phi decided to ruin something again for me. During our semester break, I didn't expect phi to come with me or even drop me as he always went on vacation with friends. 

But to my surprise and even our family's surprise, P'Forth took P'Beam to our house. Not like the last few years, where he would go on random places with his friends during the break. 

I felt like beating him. Like come on! If you are going home, then take me too. Why did I have to ride a bus for the whole damn day? Or at least tell me your plans so I won't be too shocked. 

At home, everyone was mesmerized by P'Beam. My parents accepted him, which I was glad about by the way! I remember them fussing all over him the whole time like chill out guys!

Even daddy, that cold hearted man, was busy admiring P'Beam and pampering him like a kid while mom was all over phi to remind him to take the best care of P'Beam if he wants to live.

I felt that I didn't even belong there. Like hello! I am there too. If not all, then even minimal attention would do you guys! But, I wasn't a match for any of that. How could I? Right!

I was aware of dad and phi, but now mom too was focused on him only. After having enough, I sulked to mom, but she said that its P'Beam's 1st time here so let him enjoy some time.

After some talk, I shrugged it off thinking that it was just my stupid jealousy making me sulk. Things got stable later, and I was back to my normal state keeping aside all wrong thoughts.