The Rockstar and Me

Chapter 14

''Cam....'' I breathed still frozen on the door, my eyes focused on the white powder in the desk. Did my brother knew about this? If he did why he haven't done something about it? What if he didn't knew

''what?'' He snapped like it was nothing.

''Don't'' I said stepping into his room and closing the door behind him. 

''It's my problem don't yours, and it helps me relax'' He said with a shrug as if it was the most normal thing ever to do drugs.

''It doesn't help you'' I said and despite myself I walked and stood beside him, starring into his eyes. It made me wonder how badly his childhood must have been to drive him to do this. I remember my mom told me he had a bad childhood and he told me his dad was beating him up but this?

''Why do you care anyway?'' He snapped again at me his eyes dark

''Because you're destroying your life for a stupid reason. Blake told me you don't take orders well but you don't have to do this'' I said

''You don't know anything about me little girl'' He said his voice icy cold

''Surprise me'' I challenged and he arched his brows at me

''You don't wanna know'' he said after a while

''You can't be that bad'' I said with a shrug although my mind was screaming at me to run away because he was that bad. The guy was taking drugs for God's sake but also the guy, had rocked my world with one simple kiss

''I was sent to juvie  when I was 13'' He simply said with a smile like he was expecting me to freak out. I stayed still.

''They were telling us to do things and when we didn't, they were beating us up'' He went on

''That's why you don't like to do as you are told?'' I asked feeling a knot forming in my throat. I wanted to ask questions but I knew he wasn't gonna answer. Why the hell he was sent to juvie at such a young age?

''Among other things yeah.'' He stated then looked down at the coke in the desk. 

''It calms me down'' He said. Taking a deep breath I reached for his hand and took  it in mine.

''It destroys you'' I told him looking him dead in the eyes. He sighed.

''Look if this is about the kiss, stop it. I'm not gonna fall for you it was just a kiss'' He said and the knot in my stomach rose up to my neck. I swear I wanted to cry. Not that I didn't expect that but it still hurt

''Okay I'll  leave'' I said rising up to my feet and  letting go of his hand.

''But Cam? It's not worth it.'' I said pointing a finger in the white powder on the desk. ''Even though you are a jerk'' I added and walked out and into my room. I needed to be alone.