The Rockstar and Me

Chapter 23

When we got home I didn't eat anything, I wasn't in the mood. I tried to study, occupy my mind with something but again I couldn't. My mind was to Cam and when he was going to wake up. I was laying on my bed starring up the ceiling and thinking. Thinking of what had happened between us right before his accident, and how this was my fault. If only I had kept my mouth shut.....

My door suddenly opened and I sit up. Blake walked in and shut the door behind him. He was about to say something, but I held my hand up to stop him

''Don't. Seriously. Just don't'' He sighed and his face changed, his lips parting a little, his brown eyes on the ground.

''You're in love with him aren't you?'' He asked. I didn't replied. Instead I looked out of the window. I didn't want to talk about it not with Blake. For starters even I, had no idea how I felt about him.

''How long has this been going on?'' He asked again sitting on the edge of the bed. Again I said nothing

''I'm not mad Victoria I just know Cam okay? And if he haven't hurt you already he will'' He stated

''He's in the hospital'' I snapped

''He's in coma, we don't even know if he's going to wake up'' My voice broke at the end. Blake sighed and extended his arms at me

''Come here'' He muttered and I let him hug him. And just like that I couldn't hold back any longer. I broke down, crying, sobbing, whimpering all at once. I just let it all out. And Blake just held me all the while, patting my back, whispering that it's all gonna be okay.

''You're better?'' He asked after a while, after I had relax a little, although small sobs were still escaping my mouth.

''Yeah'' I replied and took a sip of the glass of water he had brought me.

''Listen things are difficult but he's gonna be okay, alruight? He's gonna make it'' He promised me starring into my eyes. Not trusting my voice I nodded.

''We've kissed'' I whispered looking down

''More than once'' I was still looking down. I wasn't gonna say about what happened between us at the party though.

''But I don't think the feelings mutual'' I finished

''That bastard. Once he's awake and out of the hospital I'm gonna kick his ass I swear'' Blake said and I chuckled a little at that. He believed that Cam was gonna wake up, the tone of his voice didn't left space for any arguments.

''It was just some kisses'' I shrugged

''And somewhere along the way you fell-''

''I just like him okay? Stop with the big brother attitude'' I snapped. He shut his eyes for a moment and then opened them again.

''Okay. We'll talk about it once he's awake'' He promised me and pulled me in another hug

''Just sleep a little okay? It's late'' He told me as he drew back and stood up

''Okay'' I promised but I knew it was a lie.

''Good night''

''Good night''

Once he was out of my room, I curled under the covers and closed my eyes in an attempt to sleep. Yeah right. I was closing my eyes and all I could see was Cam at the hospital bed, standing there motionless and bruished.
I opened my eyes again. Sleep seem so useless and unimportant now. All I could think about was Cam. Him and if he was going to wake up. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it if he wasn't going to wake up. And damn it why I wasn't more positive like Blake was? Blake was sure that Cam was going to wake up, why couldn't I be like that?