Three months has gone by which means i only have nine months left, what am i going to do i want to make an impact in the world i cant work i cant even stand up without feeling lightheaded, i cant live like this anyore im completley bald all i am is skin and bone and im in pain and its only going to get worst i cant bear this pain for another nine months i want to die now please god just let me die.
I know i cant think like that, im being selfish, i need to think of hadley and jaiden and the rest of my family. but what am i to do, everything is falling apart and i cant do anyhting to stop it from happening im scarded of death but most of all im scared people are going to forget me.
just then i see Hadley and Jaiden walking into my room and sat on the couch i gestered them to come onto my bed which the embliged and climbed onto my bed, "how are you feeling today" Hadley asks "im doing swell" i lied of course hes to young to understand but jaiden knows im lyinging and he gave me a sympathetic look which makes my heart break in know he will never forget me but hadley is only five, i remeber the day hadley was born 6th september 2010 like it was yesterday.
-FLASHBACK STARTS-
it was 8 in the evening mandy and i was on the couch watching some boring soap called eastenders, while Ramin took Jaiden out for ice cream, then all of a sudden mandy starts to scream in pain "what is it" i screamed "the baby hes coming" she screas back i start to panic and called Ramin "ah shit theres a traffic jam i wont be there for about an hour" Ramin says nervously, so i hung up on him and rang the hospital but because of the traffic jam (which was a massive pile up car crash) they couldnt get there for another hour, they instructed me to stay on the phone when i heard mandy scream "my water just broke" i started to panic and the woman told me to calm down and to fetch a bowl of water and some towels which i quickly did, then they told me that i had to get mandy onto the floor and put her into delivery positon thats when i clicked "i cant do that im not trained wat if anyhting happens it would be my fault" i cried down the phone "i dont care just get this thing out of me" mandy pleaded it took anouther thirty minuetes and mandy was ready to push so she did then after ten minuetes little hadley was here Ramin then just burst in the door with the paramedics and then i realised i just delivered his son.
-FLASBACK ENDS-
it pains me that little Hadley will grow up without knowing me, but i guess i have to get over it i know Ramin and Mandy will never let him forget who i was.
Just then my chest began to hurt and i screamed in pain "quick go get dad" jaiden screams to hadley so hadley jumps of the bed and runs upstairs for Ramin crying "daddy, quick its auntie sierra shes hurt please daddy help her" while hes getting his dad JAiden comes over to me and takes my hand and tells me "if its too much pain then just let go we will all understand we all love you" i then put my hand on his cheek as he starts to cry i open my mouth and cries "i love you too" and then the room around me turns into darkness.......
A/N: so i have started to write a different Rierra fanfiction but i will upload that when i have finished with this one i hope you enjoyed this and sorry for the small cliffhanger but dont worry she doesnt die just yet i promise.
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A friendships tale (RIERRA A FANFICTION)
FanfictionWhat's the first thing that comes into your head once you have been told 'you have cancer' how are you meant to react? Will you survive? Will people be there for you? My name is Sierra Boggess and this is my journey to the end.
