How The Galaxy Expects You To Live Until You Die (Based on A True Story)

The earthquake ✅

Somewhere in the end of August after Saul had left, I was a bit Sad over everything. Of course... i knew Saul wasn't for me because i had always wanted to look for someone who was smart and sweet. Usually in high school the only thing you can really find are skaters, and guys who smoke weed thinking its cool. I dont think thats cool. Its not healthy either. Smoking weed is dumb. I was decided to get a boyfriend for the very least in junior year. By then, i had been single for about a year and a half after i broke up with Ronny in July of 2020. 

No matter how I saw possible subjects just none of them were my type... neither was Dean if i had to be honest. To me, I saw Dean as a friend but as time went by i saw him somewhat different. I would really think about him before going to break... eventually it was really annoying because i knew that this feeling was because i was beginning to like him more than what i had ever thought.

From one moment to another, i became best friends with one of Deans friends named Alejandro. He was short, Pilipino, always had a stuffed-wide backpack, and a weird haircut. He had a girlfriend named Vanessa who wasn't the brightest coin of the bunch but he truly loved her... and i thought that was amazing. Ali was someone who would respond quickly, he was really nice, like actually... he was a kind person and he was someone really easy to talk to. Eventually we  got really close, We were like besties and everytime i went to the table we would talk and talk and talk. We were so close... that i even let him log into my Instagram account when he pleased and nobody had ever had that privilege. As his relationship with Vanessa was sort of concerning him and he needed someone to simply listen to him rant, i was that person for him and he appreciated it immensely. So when we just wanted to rant about anything we had one another and it was as simple as that. One day of many he asked me about Dean. He was so straight up with me too.

 "You like Dean.. right sophia?"

The kid had shocked me to the point where i left on seen for ten minutes and then i responded. I told him that Dean did interest me... but i knew he wouldn't go out with me either way and i supposed that he thought i was ugly or something. Ali simply told me what he thought. He claimed that Dean was a great guy and that i shouldn't think about myself as so. I was a ordinary girl, who'd smile, laugh, and try to establish a conversation with everyone, with Ali... it was easy especially because he helped me once in a while and told me what Dean was interested in because he thought me and Dean could be something. To be honest... as Ali told me the things he knew about Dean i realized me and Dean had nothing almost nothing in common.

One day of many i was scrolling through my messages and i decided to text Ethan. To be honest i was a bit bored but i knew Dean and Ethan were basically best friends so i was going through every corner and every open edge i could squeeze myself into. My message that time was a simple  "Hey". and he responded to a "Hey". It was such a awkward hey too... like just "hey". 

To my sense Ethan was sort of awkward with girls. Everytime i talked to him at school he couldn't keep a straight face or conversation without finally asking me a very simple question like "what did you do today Sophia". I usually ran my mouth more than him so i suppose he did it to not talk as much. The first time I texted Ethan we kept things simple. I told him that i wanted to get to know him more because he was going to help me with the club and i wanted to be able to call him a close friend and he was obviously fascinated with the idea. From one second to another my "bestie" relationship with Ali became less important to me. Not really... but i definitely thought that Ethan and i should have gotten closer from day one because he was helping with the club. With Ethan it took me some time because first of all i didn't want to get really close to him since i thought Ethan was a bitch... like a actual bitch. Ethan was way too sincere with me... and i hated that about him. Not only that, but he was careless and if he had something to say he would definitely not hesitate to say it.