How The Galaxy Expects You To Live Until You Die (Based on A True Story)

The G.C ✅

In the morning of September 18th, the day after the earthquake,  I texted Ethan about the conversation that me and Dean had. Only about Rhianese. I let him know how miserable Dean was and how much i cared for him and his well being. I'm sure i didn't mention that Dean was crying... but i know it would have made Ethan react worse then what he did either way. Ethan let me know that Dean had also talked to him about Rhianese and their relationship problems but he didn't think it was as serious... so Ethan was decided to tell Dean that him and Rhianese were not working and that it was only going to get worse...and worse... 

And so we created a group chat. Dean, Sophia, And Ethan.

Here... Me and Ethan bombed Dean with texts. On my end... I told Dean what i though... and as a girl... i was a bit emotional telling him that he should do what his heart was telling him to do. Ethan of course with his mentality told him to be smart about it, to realise that their relationship wasn't going anywhere. I let Dean know how i felt... but in some way... i wanted Dean to be with me... a bit selfish i have to admit... but never ever was I more sure about loving someone than that year. I wanted Dean to be happy with me because i truly liked him and i was almost as sure and positive that id never make him feel the way Rhianese did. While me and Ethan told Dean that they weren't going to work, Dean was shattering tears on the other end of the screen but its because he cared immensely about her, but deep inside he knew that she wasn't the girl for him. An hour later, me and Ethan decided to give Dean some space. About half and hour after Dean texts on the group chat and lets us know that they were no longer together. 

When Dean let us know... I went to my normal conversation with Ethan where i cruely celebrated the end to their relationship. I was smiling... I was laughing and i was just so happy about Dean being in a way... heart broken ... but most importantly... that he was no longer in that toxic relationship with a girl who only made his heart melt but who didn't really care for him. Dean was just so inlove with her and even when they had never seen each other in real life, she made Dean happy simply because she existed. 

After celebrating their end to the relationship, i left my phone for a while. I suppose i had been thinking about Dean and him crying because for sure he was and i knew it well. My happiness then had a downfall because i realised i was being a horrible person for being happy about him being single... not only that... but in reality i started to cry feeling like i was once more part of his disgrace because i thought "what if Dean was actually happy with her... and i just came in and ruined it all" and so i texted Dean and told him that in reality... i couldn't make him happy either... and that i realised that i was being a horrible person and that i was gonna distance myself because id realised that i was being impulsive and that i didn't want any of that to happen... and that if i truly liked Dean... then i would have wanted him to be happy in his own way even if his happiness came with sadness it was how he chose to live. 

And so I left him a paragraph which summarized me saying that i loved him but i wasn't for him either... and most importantly... that i had destroyed his happiness. I was willing to do anything for Dean but then i had that guilt with me ... and so Dean saw my message... and he left me on seen. I was crying my ass off too! I had that guilt with me the entire day and as the afternoon went by I sort of had the courage to go back and text Dean. Already waiting for me was a message from him where he said that it wasn't my fault and that i didn't need to feel bad at all. I tried to understand what he was saying... and then i asked him if we could date now with a smiling emoji... his response was..

"Sophia... give me some time... i literally just broke up with Rhianese, stop being thirsty"