It sucks when you decided you don't want to live anymore at such a young age because you don't get to live at all even if you're very much alive.
It sucks even more when you start living for other people because you'll really start resenting them for it.
I think the only reason I'm still here at the age of 21 is because of my dad. I loved my dad so much. He was the only person who really loved me even at my worst. That's why I could never do anything that I know would hurt him.
And now that he's gone, I really feel what it's like to really alone. Like I don't have anyone to run to anymore. I don't have anyone I can talk to. He was my person. Now I don't have anyone anymore.
Literally.
I can't count on anyone anymore.
Now that he's gone, I want to be gone even more.
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things I'll never tell my therapist because I can't afford to have one
Teen FictionHi! I won't tell you my name because I don't want any one from my real life know how crazy my life really is but I'm 21 years old although I still feel like I'm still 14 *coughs* you know just ✨trauma✨ things 😌 and these are the random thoughts (ra...
