Esdeaths Lover

Chapter Nineteen

Esdeaths perspective
She complimented me, this made everything so much harder for me. I was known as a tyrant and an impossible woman yet when i'm with her i feel so much better about myself. she like my eyes. The only reason i had agreed to the duel was so that i could make her love me. Was that what this was love. I felt obsessed with her. My entire mind was being swallowed by thoughts of her. I don't know why i walked out. I placed a hand to my forehead and i could feel tiny droplets of sweat peeling from my face. This was the first time i've ever been worked up about someone like this. I should probably go back to her and explain everything. If i explained would it make her want to cancel the duel and me and her can stay together for the rest of our lives .

(MCs perspective)
I was so annoyed. Without a word she just walks out on me. Did i do anything wrong? I could now hear her heels hitting the floor and it only got louder as she got closer. She was coming back. Her moods were so bipolar.
"you're back?" i wasn't going to just let her be off and on with me and i wanted her to be put in place.
"yes and if that's an issue please say it instead of wallowing on it" it was a massive issue.
"there isn't an issue at all, i'm just surprised that you've come back so suddenly that is all" I could tell that she was now confused.

i wasn't going to explain myself, i didn't need to. At the end of the day i knew that all she wanted was for me to be dead and out of her hair that would make her life so much easier but little did she know i was going to take her life and make it painful after she took the lives of two of my comrades

Esdeaths perspective
She didn't know this yet but i had kept that green haired blubbering idiot alive and he stays in my dungeons below my grounds until the end of the duel where she will inherit everything that i have built for myself. Lubbock? was that his name? kept begging for me to release her but i couldn't i didn't want her to leave she was the most precious thing that i ever had she made me want to murder that son of a bitch prime minster but even if i wanted to i couldnt i couldn't hurt him or the emperor because of my curse. Even if i slightly hurt them my own life would be jeopardised and that bastard curse will catch up with me taking my own life. I wasn't always like this i used to care. Me and Najenda who i knew was the leader of the Night Raid were so close and i wanted to join her. This empire needed to be ripped apart and if it meant i lost my life i at least wanted a fighting chance i couldnt just sit back and lose my life without ever actually contributing to the take down.
"please listen to me now! i want you to please cancel this duel i won't make you stop but i will beg you to stop, why can't you stay by my side?" i coukd already tel by her facial expressions that she wasn't going to do this.
"if i want a chance to live and succeed then i have to follow through with this duel because i have people waiting for me and your existence only puts me in a terrible position so by fighting you i might be able to gain back everything that i have lost" she couldn't gain back everything, surely she was crazy. Sheele was dead.
"Sheele isn't coming back" i lifted my eyebrow.
"Sheele is coming back if i just get enough power in me then i can bring her back" She's crazy. She has gone crazy.
"Look when someone dies they don't come back i'm sorry you lost your friend but she can't come back you know this" i felt a pang in my heart. What was this? did i maybe feel sorry for her?
"Sheele is coming back! that or i'm going to her because i can't bare this any longer i feel like a part of me has died i don't want to carry on this way" Her eyes were filled with tears and she suddenly dropped to her knees. should i comfort her? that would only make it worse.
"i'm sorry" i walked out i felt terrible just leaving her bundled up in the corner of my bedroom but i could t provide her with any help let alone console her.