Esdeaths Lover

Chapter twenty

*This will be my longest chapter because it's the last chapter i will estimate that it has around three thousand words by the end of it possibly more depending on what path i choose in the end, i really hope everyone had enjoyed this story because i know that i've really tried even writing this, i'll most likely start a new story after this about another character but i haven't decided just yet who i should write about if there are any ideas that people want to put forward i am more then happy to listen and write about them! So please enjoy this last chapter as i hope that it is the best yet and you won't expect anything that happens in it! so think this specific last chapter took me a week to plan out and formulate :)

It was the day of the duel and it was most certainly safe to say that i was nervous. I could potentially lose my life but at least i would lose it to someone as beautiful as Esdeath. My hands were clammy i tried to clutch a sword and the only thing that kept me from dropping it was the fury that i felt towards her for killing my two friends i wanted to avenge them. An eye for an eye. It would be hard but i could do it. I couldn't die right not like this surely everything would go right. I was ready wasn't i? i had trained so hard for this and i'm playing it to my strength. I can survive. I can survive. I can survive! i had to say it three times because that's how wished come true. A knock at the door came.
"Can i come in?" just by the short sentence i already knew that it was Esdeath.
"sure you can come in if you want" i was trying to be distant on purpose i was just trying to distance e myself from the fact that i'm either i was going to end up dead and bloody on the ground or her beautiful face was going to be ruined by me. I wanted to live. I had a lot to live for. In the past i knew that i would have found it hard to live because i could t find a reason but over this past week i had gathered information about myself that made me want to live that made me want avenge all those that had died. This empire needed to fall and i wanted it to fall before i fell.

Esdeaths perspective
I knew what i had to do. I had to die. It was possible that i was scared right now it had not occurred to me until now that death was a scary thing. How could i take all of those lives so selfishly. I had to die. I had to die to save humanity. Without me here maybe she could live a good life maybe she could figure out how to bring that Sheele girl back. Why couldn't she take about me like she talked about Sheele.
"Are you okay? do you still agree to our terms" i couldnt even look at her. I was ashamed with myself for having such thoughts. That she could care for a monster like myself but it was all fake, she was only being nice to me for the sake of survival.
"yes i still agree we have around twenty minutes until we duel, can you recap the agreed upon price?" i already knew the price that i was going to have to pay but i wanted to hear it so that it would become real.
"Yes of course....we need will fight using the swords you have provided for us and the price you will pay will be with your life however if you do end up winning then i will die at your hands and your hands alone" even her morbid words seduced me, she was like an addiction my own drug. I wanted her out of my system.

MCs perspective
Why was she like this? so cold and distant, did death not scare her because i knew that it definetley scared me, i wanted nothing more then to feel happy. I didn't want to fight i hated violence i wanted to go back to the times with my brother where we lived on top of that bakery that had since burnt to a crisp. The smell of freshly cooked bread always made me happy but all of the was just a distant memory.
"Are you ready? i will meet you in the grounds outside i'll leave these last five minutes to you" was she serious, she was so cool about killing me. was she that confident in herself? Surely not maybe at least one inch of her was shivering, Fearing for her life. Come on she couldn't be this confident with herself. I was panicking.
Four minutes left
I only had four minutes till i possibly died there was so much that i wanted to do. When this war was over i wanted to open my own bakery and cook the nice smelling bread like the baker did.
three minutes left
Time was flying by at this point. I didn't want to die. I want to live. There was so much in my life that i wanted to do. I wanted to get married i wanted my own daughter.
two minutes left
Ever since i was little i had names picked out for my dream daughter i wanted to get married and have child named Aurelia, i wanted her to have a good life not like my own. My life was cruel and not something a child deserved to go through. I was still eighteen. I was still only young.
one minute left
I had to make my way over to the grounds hoping where we were going to duel. It was just grass that had beautiful flowers on, at least my last memories will be pretty. This meadow reminded me of simpler times. A whirlwind of memories reminded me of myself as five years old playing alongside and older girl who almost reminded me of Esdeath she was taller then me and her name was Lilith, she was older then me and my brother she never failed to make either of us laugh. I missed that girl. I wonders where she had ended up. Like most of the people from my village she was probably dead. I grabbed my sword it had a good grip on it. I almost felt confident in myself.
"Are you ready?"she sounded like a stubborn child, her words were slurred.
"Have you been drinking?" she didn't answer and instead grabbed a sword and ran towards me. I hadn't even told her to start yet.

Esdeaths perspective
I needed a drink, "oi you bring me some port" everyone was scared of me. Of course as a younger child i never wanted to become liked this but this is what happens when you want to save your village. You get warped into a Villain. I drank all the port i had no reason to keep it after all. At the end of the day i have told myself that i was going to fail ever since yesterday when she proposed this idea to me. I had never felt this way towards somebody and it was honest of me to admit that i was irrevocably in-love with everything about her. I wanted all of her. Every last inch, i wanted to own her but alas the universe was cruel and instead of being on the same team here i was fighting against her. I could feel my body taking over as i felt rosales in my own mind. I could no longer control my own movements and automatically i was racing towards her my sword drawn. A large slash down her body drew blood as she jumped back. Was there pain in her eyes? No No i didn't want to look this wasn't what i wanted. I wanted to fail. I want her to live. I want her to live for the both of us, i felt possessed this wasn't me that was fighting i was just but a mere puppet to his empire i felt sorry for myself which was a rare event.

MCs perspective
My body froze, blood was now escaping from my chest. It wasn't physically painful but the emotions that were currently running through me. Threw me off guard. I struck her but only on the hand, piercing through her hand. She was a lot stronger then i had ever anticipated as if nothing had happened she carried in fighting even with a large hole in the middle of her hand. She was shockingly strong, so all of the rumours were in fact true she really was strong and if not the strongest person i have ever fought. The worrying factor if this all was that i was struggling to carry on with my stamina. Was i going to fail? At this thought the most gut wrenching sensation travelled though my body. It felt like my body was on fire like something had pulsed through me. so looked down at my stomach and realised her sword has lodged itself into me. Was i really such an easy target, i was nothing but an easy obstacle. I wasn't going to give up just yet. This wasn't the end for me, was it? I attempted to lift up my sword and stab her but it was no use as yet another blow was planted on my forearm. I let out a loud scream and she clicked out of whatever spell she was under. Her eyes made contact with mine. Tears seemed to be forming. I had lost so much blood that i could no longer stand and i fell to the ground my own tears started to prick up. Life was so cruel leading me on like this. Giving me false hope. What had i done
What gave i done to her she was laid on the ground dying in front of me.
I could see Esdeaths mind trying to work out what she had just done. All i could do was cry and focus on her. I felt at peace the grass smelt good and it reminded me of a warm summers day. my knees felt sore and just as i was about to finally collapse sprawled out on the ground Esdeath cupped me in her arms.
"please don't leave me here" what was she saying. None of her words made any sense to me. I could t think of anything but that young girl who i played games with as a child.
Esdeaths perspective
My ultimate plan to leave the world had failed and now i was to be alone again. I could not do anything more but to hold her in my arms as i watched her life slowly fade. I felt nothing anymore. I felt empty. This was a feeling i was commonly greeted with but this time i wanted to destroy the world. The only dear thing i had was gone. As usual i had murdered everything i had ever felt close to. I was a monster. My own mother never loved me which would explain why she sold me off to become an imperial soldier

"please, please don't move me! I love you" it had been years since i had said i love you to anyone but i meant it. Why did she have to leave. Her body was cold and limp.
"wake up, WAKE UP!!!" she wasn't waking up i tried to shake her but still no response. My hands were covered in warm blood that kept spilling out. Her face was drained of any life was this really the end? I no longer cared about anything. I wanted to save her but even then my strength was not enough. No number of strength or magic could ever bring her back. I wanted everyone to feel the misery that i felt at this exact moment. I wanted everyone to die. I would start with Najenda but she probably did not have long left due to her imperial arms. I ordered for all my servants to line up outside and one by one i cut them down. My sword was bloodied and i did not care.
what was the point of being good when everyone was unfraid being evil was better because then at least everyone would be scared of me.