Reina [HS]

4.

Tranquility.

Calmness.

Contentment.

Everyone knows the meaning of these words. Knowing something and experiencing it are too different things though.

Sitting here, in this small living room, I'm doing exactly that. Experiencing contentment. The feeling of everything is at its own place.

Everything is right.

It all makes perfect sense. The colour of the walls, the oak furniture, the green couch...

Her.

I don't think I've ever felt so normal in my entire life. No expectations, just being who I am. Letting everything go, shutting off my mind, and not caring about a single thing in the world.

This is the real peace.

Just sitting here on the floor, head empty, listening to her voice as she tells me about her day.

If a week ago someone had said I'd be here right now, I would've probably laughed at the ridiculous idea. It seems so insane, just to even think about the fact that seven days ago I didn't even know this girl lives in this dreadful city.

Well, it isn't so dreadful anymore, I guess.

I don't see her for fucking years, then one day out of nowhere, I find myself knocking on her door. What is even crazier, is that she opened that door and invited me in.

I actually have no idea ever since why she did it... but maybe I don't even want to know.

That day still feels extremely surreal, like I dreamt the whole thing. I know I didn't though, it was very much real, and that scares me a little bit.

I'm not entirely sure how to handle the situation, so I decided I won't overthink it. I'll just do whatever feels right, whether it will turn out good, or as a complete disaster.

That's exactly what I'm doing right now, as I said before. Enjoying myself, appreciating the moment.

Even though only a few days have passed since my unexpected visit, this time it feels completely different.

First of all, it wasn't a surprise, unlike before. Elizabeth knew I was coming.

After we got over the initial overwhelming state we were in, everything became so much easier.