To All The Guys I Flirted

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December 28, 2021

To my dear self. Huwag ulitin at padalos-dalos Ren, kase mas maganda parin yung pinaghahandaan kaysa hinde.

 
Alam kong masyado kang excited kaya nagawa mong umalis para mapuntahan siya, pero sana pinairal mo yung pride at dignidad mo bilang babae, pano nalang kung may mangyare sayong masama? Edi mag-aalala family mo. Love can wait, huwag kang mag madale shuta ka! Sarap mong sampalin para matauhan ka.

Kung seryoso at gusto ka ni Moii makakapaghintay siya sayo, unahin mo studies mo, wag ang tawag ng laman, kabag lang yan, mag crave blocker ka para ma-satisfy ka!

Buti nalang hindi ka natuloy sa pagpunta sa Cainta, madisgrasya ka pa.

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Dissapointed ako kay Moi kala ko gusto niya ko at seryoso siya sakin? Ba't ganun hindi niya ko ni-rereply kagaya ng dati? Muntik na kong mahulog sa kaniya. Hindi siya marunong umintinde sakin kapag my nagawa man akong pagkakamale kagaya ng dati. Medyo masakit pero kakayanin ko. Magaling siyang mag flirt, nadadala niya ko sa mabulaklak niyang salita. Sayang bumili pa naman ako ng promise rings to remind each other our promise to stick together no matter what at tickets to watch a movie with him. Dun nagtatapos ang love story namin.

Thank you Moi for seeing me rare in your eyes. I liked you but we were not meant for each other I hope you'll find someone who will love you even better.

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After what happened, nagparamdam ako sa kaniya, but just like always he was interested in me, and the next day, he's not. I was angry at him that made me feel horny for him. I let him taste me even if it's just through Instagram which is my dummy account so I know I'm safe. I gave him the best first sex call in his life and I know it will remind him of me. I was happy to share that intimate moment with him and I gave my best to let him know I loved him. I was not hurt, nor crying. I was just disappointed with all the promises, he used to give me. Now they are shattered glass things. left on the floor. No one picks up. I then ghosted him, I'm not going to tolerate the red flags my intuition is telling me about him. Perhaps even in the afterlife, I don't want to see him again. 

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Lesson learned: Don't date a sadboii or even have a relationship with them, it's such a toxic trait that you'll have to tolerate if they guilt trip you. 

Guy's name: Moi