manipulation | baji kesiuke x reader

one | new beginning

exactly one more month until i turn 17 was the only thought that circled around my head. It was 11:00 pm and i couldn't sleep overthinking how much i've grown up and how life's treated me over time.

i can't say life's been completely sweet because i'd be lying but whenever it's hard i always tell myself, to suck it up because others have it worse, or atleast that's what someone tells me...

what kind of person says that? well my brother, he's done and said a lot more hurtful things i don't even want to remember about...Kazutora Hanemiya.

We're siblings but not just regular siblings, he's my older half-brother. Basically what happened was before i was born, my mom married this horrible man, they had a kid together, kazutora except as they grew up, there were more and more family problems, my mom doesn't like talking about it too much but she told me how kazu's dad was violent and would hit and harm her, kazu watched all of it until eventually his dad went to jail

A year later my mom was better off with a man who treated her good...my dad of course. they had me and my mom obviously kept kazutora and raised him along with me. We don't look completely alike and don't have the same last name therefore people never really guess we're siblings.

Me and kazu were such close siblings when we were little until eventually he started growing up too quickly and started becoming a rebellious teenager. He started coming home with bloody knuckles and bruises on some parts of his body with a smile on his face. He then started to be more violent around me causing our friendship to disappear and making us nothing other than half siblings.

And nothing worse than what happened one night, it was late and i stayed up looking outside the window waiting for him to come home but he didn't. Instead none other than the police showed up knocking on the door saying my brother was going to be in juvie for a long while

The news hurt our entire family deeply and we counted each day waiting for when we'd finally be reunited with kazu. It was barely this summer until he was released. When he came back we all expected him to be happy to see his family again but he just had a normal blank expression almost as if he was never gone.

He dropped out of high school and just started selling drugs behind my parents back to earn himself some money. It was this summer when things started to change, i can't tell you if i mean it in a good or bad way. Kazu said he wanted to move into the big city of tokyo which was a little far from where we were. My mom suggested me and him to get our own place together then, since she knew i've also always wanted to live in the city.

Eventually we moved into an apartment with two bedrooms and i thought it was so cool. it was like a new beginning. Now that it was only me and Kazu living together he was changing even more. He started getting tattoos, partying more, getting involved in more fights, but he also opened up to me a a bit, which i was glad.

He told me he is in a gang but not the gangs you think of. He said he's in a gang that fights bad people, he only picks on bad guys, so i trust him and know he wouldn't do anything bad to someone who doesn't deserve it no matter what he's done in the past..right? i've given him my support because he's my brother and i love him.

Before i knew it, it was 1 am already. fuck. i have to get up in 6 hours. i'm barely going to sleep, i'm going to show up the first day of school looking like a monster...summer is finally over :(... that was my final thought before drifting off to sleep. (zzz)
- to be continued