A little reminder

Remind yourself.

Letter to him, from her. 

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This might be cliche for you pero wala akong pake sa iniisip mo HAHAHAHA. Nung naisip kong gawin 'to, ang dami dami kong gusto sabihin. Ang dami dami kong naiisip isulat, WALA NA NGAYON WHAHAHAHAHAHA. Kung binasa mo yung past chapters, you've know my insights or point of view during those time. 

HINDI KO NA ALAM SASABIHIN KO GAGO. WALA NA AKO MASABE!! 

I am very sure na I am really maboka and madami say before, IDK NOW!! I'm really good at this but I can't seem to do it now. 

Maybe I just wanna say that everyday since the day I met you, bought happiness. You were always a flashlight for me na when you say Jib, I know I'm okay na. I'm going to be okay na. It wasn't like that syempre nung una, dahan dahan nabuo. There are times--A LOT of times you disappoint me and makes me wanna stop trusting you which is SECRET but anws, it's a scary world out there, and I wanna be scared with you. Like magtatago ako sa likod mo para ikaw una mamatay HAHAHAHAHA. 

I know na sa ating dalawa, I've stopped with the sweet and long messages kahit nung pasko because I've put it all in here!! Christmas was a lot better with you in it. Gago alam mo kung manloloko ka, okay, edi sige. Kung sasaktan mo ako, kung f mo mas gusto mo yung mga past na nakaano mo kaso ako lang nagwork, kung tingin mo kulang ako, basta kung sasaktan mo ako, OKAY LANG GAGU. Kasi aalis naman ako, e. Hindi naman ako yung iiyak at magmumukmok lang baka gantihan pa kita. 

Pero I will say this once and I will never repeat it ever!! 

Huwag mo gawin yun. Alam nating dalawa na kaya kong umalis, o kaya kong gumanti, gusto mo paiyakin pa kita e. Pero kasi it would hurt a little more kasi ikaw yun, e. Out of all people, bakit mo ako sasaktan? I pray to God to help me love you correctly para hindi kita masaktan, sana ikaw din. Kasi nung sinagot kita alam ko na alis lahat ng pabebe, alam ko na kailangan ko na ring isipin nararamdaman mo kahit gaano ko pa kaayaw. Yup, indeed a rose with thorns. ALAM MO SA TOTOO LANG WALA NA KO MASABI NAHIHIRAPAN NA AKO IPAGPATULOY 'TO KASI GALIT AKO SAYO, AYOKO SAYO, NAIIRITA AKO SAYO. 

Ayoko na kasi talaga ng ganon. Ayoko ng may iisipin!! Wala na ayoko na di ko na itutuloy 'to wala na ko masabi di kita bati. PERO WALA NA KO MAGAGAWA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA boyfriend na po kita, eh. Pero pwede ba magalit muna??? Pwede ba wag ka muna kausapin tapos kausapin ka lang pag gusto ko?? HINDE HAHAHAHAHA HINDE PWEDE YON KAYA EWAN KO SAINYO STRESSFUL AMPOTA. 

I had to stop from writing this. Like now eto nittype ko, niccontinue ko ko lang pero dapat kahapon pa. WALA KASI TALAGA AKO MASABI HAHAHAHA. But I surely don't want to end this na ang pangit naman.