Book of Poems

I'm Sorry I Love You

You may hold my hand

You may kiss my lips

But inside I can tell you aren't in our land

You look at her and over nothing you trip

Why do you stay? Is it bad I want you to leave?

Yes I love you but I want you to be happy

Even though if you left I would grieve

I keep my distance sometimes, just not to be clingy

One day you're staring

I couldn't take it any more

"Derek your feelings you're barring

I'm leaving you." I said with throat sore.

He looks at me with hurt in his eyes and asked,

"Was it something I did? Was It something I said?"

"You love her and it's time to let your feelings unmask.

Don't think that I am mislead.

Now go to her and don't be shy,

be honest and be true."

I said with a sigh.

When he walked away I can't say that I didn't feel a little blue.

That very next morning I got a letter

Creamy white paper signed in black ink

What it said was bitter,

"Kate you are wrong, that girl and me have no link.

I actually loved you

I thought you felt the same.

But yesterday spoke what is true

You could never love me you thought it was a game.

You thought I would look at other girls

When all I really wanted was you

I know you thought I looked at other pearls

But I was afraid to find the truth that inside me grew

You never loved me, you only used me

You never cared for me, that I now know

But I keep hoping that would change you see?

But the truth broke into seeds and was sown

Yesterday was the best day of my life

I don't have to put up with you pretending anymore

I don't have to put up with your strife

Shouldn't I be glad? Why is my throat sore?

I feel like crying but I dare not

Knowing you would never spill your tears for me when due

I refuse to just as I aught

But one thing I have to say is I did, do, and always love you

But also that we can never be together again.

Goodbye my love, goodbye my heart

I hope we can both find zen

Again with my heart I will never part."

I sat still for a moment before tears ran down

It was then I felt the most wonderful and disatrious feeling

I knew it was love but I still wanted to fight the frown

I felt my heart thaw then continue to bleeding

~Sorry this isn't the greatest. I was looking up some of my old works and found it so I thought I'd share it(:~