Chapter 4

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by cooal_x

by cooal_x

TW: mentions of self harm and using alcohol as an escape </3

Stop thinking so much and just ask him...
Okay I had to get ready to go back to my room and talk to clay
I was nervous. But what is the worst that could happen
I could lose my one and only friend I have ever had.
My next potential lover
And my happiness.
And my self harm clean streak
yeah. 2 months. I was trying to figure myself outfit and find out why I had no friends and it wasn't working so I thought I was a freak and a loner.
I wanted to die.
After sally caught me. I stoped. It was after the 1st day at public school and I got laughed at.
Flashback
BIG TW NOW BIG TW NOW 💕
I press the blade against my arm.
Freak
Freak
Freak
I repeated to myself in my head. As a sliced my skin open.
Loner
Loner
Loner
The tears hit my bed as well as a drop of blood
I sobbed. Trying to stay quiet
I heard someone coming upstairs
Oh god no no no no NO
sally opened my door. I didn't have time to move anything. Or hide my arm
"George, what are you doing!" She shouted
"what's it look like sally!" I shouted back
She burst into tears and walked Angrily over to my bed
"WHY WHY! TELL ME GEORGE!" She cried, pulling my bloody arm out.
"Because Im a freak! And a loner! And a saddo-" I yelled
"STOP" she shouted but I carried on
"And a weirdo! And I'm a stupid, ugly, adopted, waste of space!" I shout, letting my body fall into had arms.
She hugs me tight
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" i whispered quietly as I sobbed into her chest.
"You non of those things George. We can't help the fact we aren't your real parents. But we still love you. Very much. I don't want you to hurt yourself. Please george never do that again." She sniffled
"I promise I won't, I'm sorry sally." I sniffled
"Please call me mum George. You don't have to call me sally." He smiled, wiping her eyes
"Okay I'm sorry, m-mum" I breath.
If felt strange calling sally mum. But I guess she technically is.
and will is my dad.
End of flashback
I was walking to my room. I wipe the tear that had fell down my face while remembering all that away as I built the confidence to walk back into my room
Clay was sat on his bed on his phone.
"Hi." I sigh, he looks up at me
"Hi" he says blankly. He was definitely hurt
"Are you okay, you looked really sad? You sound it too?" I ask quietly as sat on the edge of his bed
"I'm fine George. Don't worry about me" he breaths. His voice was shaky. Like he was going to cry
"Well, if there is anything wrong, you can trust me." I smile as I go and sit on my bed.
"Ok... t-thanks?" He hesitantly said back.
We sat in silence for a bit before clay made the 1st move and got up to collect some clothes from his wardrobe.
"where are you going?" I ask nicely
"A party," he started "A friend of a friends party." He said
Oh no. That's not going to end well. At parry's there is alcohol. I've seen the movies....
I rememberer when will told me one of his good friend Alex's husband use to drink. He use to say mean things to Alex and hurt him to drown out his sadness.
I don't want clay to do that. I want him to talk to me.
"Oh, okay. When will you be back?" I ask
"pretty late, probably." He said back.
He's never usually this dry when we talk.
He put his black hoodie and his shoes
"Okay. Have fun. Bye."
"Bye, gogy" he smiles
I giggle as he shut the door.
I can't tell if he is okay or not.
I'm not good at this.
I wasn't going to sleep until clay was back. I was very nervous
I waited 3 hours.
It was 2am and clay had just stumbled back into the dorm with Nick.
"Oh my god clay!" I say, just loud Enough for all 3 of us to hear.
"Is he ok?" I ask nick.
I had never spoken to him before.
"Yeah, just wasted. Get him to bed." He said back. Trying to get clays shoes off. Seen as clay was too drunk to try
"hEhEhEh nick stop! That tickles!" Clay slurred as Nick pulled off his other shoe.
"Go to bed clay." Nick said sternly.
"I've got him, don't worry Nick." I smile.
"Oh how do u know my name?" He asks, laying clay down on his bed.
Clay was just laughing.
"Uh, we have a few classes together, I'm George." I tell him, holding out my hand for him to shake.
"Oh cool, well thanks for the help George. See ya round." Nick smiled. Heading to the door of my dorm.
"See ya" I smile.
looks like I might have another friend!
That's cool
I was snapped out of my thoughts by clay grumbling my name
"georgeee..." he groans
"Clayyy" I mock
"I'm so wasted." He giggled
"I know." I giggle back. Sitting on his bed.
"Get, get me some water George," he stuttered.
"Umm okay." I sigh. I full him a cup of water up from the bathroom tap and hand it him. He drank a sip before sighing and laying back down.
"why do I have to do these things." He mumbled
"Do what?" I ask
"Be so stupid and drink my problems away..." he said quietly, putting a pillow over his face.
"I'm just like my dad, a fucking idiot" he sighed
"will you talk to me, clay?" I ask, sheepishly, sitting on his bed.
"Fine, what else do I have to lose." He groaned, sitting up and crossing his legs
"What happened, why is your dad a bad person?" I ask, sitting crossed legged on his bed.
"Oh, where do I start..." he asks, rhetorically.

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